Blizzard - Ateez - SeongJoong

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Seonghwa was sitting in the kitchen, he had a lot on his mind, it was already late and as far as he knew Hongjoong and the girls were all asleep, so he tried to keep quiet so he wouldn't bother them.

He wanted to yell at himself because he found himself thinking about the past again and the whole reason for his trip in the first place was to try and get over everything, to get through it to learn to accept it but in the end, it seemed like it didn't work.

He let out a sigh and looked at the empty cup that contained coffee just a while ago.

"You know coffee will keep you awake right?" A voice suddenly spoke, catching Seonghwa's attention, he looked over to the door and saw Hongjoong leaning against the doorframe with a teasing smile on his face.

"I won't be sleeping anyway so I didn't think it would matter" Seonghwa mumbled but Hongjoong could still hear him.

"Let me guess, the reasons to why are running away from home are finally driving you insane huh?" Hongjoong asked as he took a seat next to Seonghwa.

"How did you know?" Seonghwa asked, surprised.

"Because I feel the same way, so it's easy to tell," Hongjoong said with a shrug.

"Should we finally take one another up on that promise? Because I really don't want to bother my friends back home with this, they had to hear it continuously before I left" Seonghwa offered, Hongjoong nodded a bit.

"Sure, but can you start 'cause mine isn't the best thing," Hongjoong asked Seonghwa.

"If you want then sure, hmmm let's see, my passion and job is photography and it has been something I liked since high school, I was president of our club and the vice pres was my best friend, someone I relied on a lot, once we finished high school we took a course together for photography and everything was going well, our friendship evolved to dating and eventually we got engaged and opened our own studio" Seonghwa started off.

"It was great, the studio was doing well and we started planning our wedding but the thing is the more progress we made the more distant she got, and I found it weird at first but then my mother told me brides usually have a lot of stress when it comes to weddings so I let her be, but I should have seen the red flags then already" Seonghwa laughed a little.

"I had a photoshoot out of town but because of heavy rain my client and I decided to cancel to shoot, for the time being, I didn't call her because I wanted to surprise her but when I got home I caught her in bed with someone she has been claiming for months is her best friend, we broke our engagement after that, she didn't want anything, our apartment, our studio she just wanted to have nothing to do with me so I closed the studio and after closing it I haven't been home much, I travel around because just being there is suffocating all those memories that are there" Seonghwa finished off with a sigh.

"I feel it's dumb that I keep thinking about this I mean I should get over it, she is the one that cheated, it wasn't me so why am I still dwelling on it?" Hongjoong asked Hongjoong.

"Because you loved her, because you trusted her with your all and in return she broke it all and getting over that, processing that makes it harder than you would like to admit, you also never want to talk about it because you're scared of what others will think and interpret it as so you never truly learn to move on from it" Hongjoong told him in a comforting tone.

"It sounds like you speak from experience, is that why you ran away as well?"

"I have experience with that, but the reason I ran away is different" Hongjoong said and looked out the door almost as if making sure the girls weren't listening in.