SPECKS OF DUST WITHIN THE GALAXY

CLOSE THE DOOR

"I now believe that love is selfish.
It makes you a country of two.
At war with the rest of the world."

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Beomgyu feels like his head is spinning as so many thoughts swarm in his mind all at once.

He can't really tell if it's just because he's not feeling well today that's why he's being extra sensitive but he could feel the shuttering of his heart as a lump started to form in his throat the moment he saw it.

Yeonjun is kissing someone.

Someone that is not Beomgyu.

The kiss just took few seconds but that was enough to shutter Beomgyu's heart to pieces.

The girl looks like really satisfied the moment they pull away from each other as the people around the room cheer aloud.

He's in one of his senior's house party right now. Soobin insist for him to go, telling him he needs some fun and that the love of his life Yeonjun would be there since the senior is Yeonjun's friend.

He arrived late dahil may tinapos pa syang project earlier and he really doesn't feel well so he's moving so slow.

The moment he arrive at the party, hinanap nya agad si Yeonjun but he's so shocked by what he saw.

Way to seeing the love of his life really.

He's glad Yeonjun has his back on him and couldn't see how pathetic he looks right now.

He turn his back and breathe sharply.

He thought Yeonjun likes him? Did Beomgyu misinterpret things? Or its just really one sided? Is it really just him all this time? 

Ah, right. Yeonjun never told him he likes him afterall. They just date every now and then but that's just it. Maybe Yeonjun had enough of him already.

God. 

His head is starting to ache. It confuses him now.

Before anyone in the room could notice how miserable he looks, he quietly walk away to leave the place.

He really shouldn't come to this damn party. He should have just stay at home and rest. Hindi nalang sana nya nakita ang nangyari. Sumakit pa tuloy ang puso nya.

He immediately call a cab when he reach outside after sending his friend Soobin the message that he will go home first.

His phone rings after some moment indicating Soobin's call but he just ignore it and send another message again to Soobin that he's fine.

When he reach his shared apartment with Soobin, he immediately go in his room and flopped his self on his bed as he sighed.

"You're so stupid, Choi Beomgyu." He mutter to his self as he let all the feelings consume him making his eyes sting.

Maybe Yeonjun get tired on his bratty ass already or he just really misinterpret things about the boy. Maybe the man doesn't have feelings for him afterall.

That night, Beomgyu fall asleep with tears in his eyes that he didn't even bother to wipe away like how he didn't bother to soothe the heartache in his chest.

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"Beomgyu, Yeonjun hyung is here."

His fingers faltered from stringing the guitar he's holding when he heard Soobin.