𝕀 𝕔𝕠𝕦𝕝𝕕 𝕟𝕖𝕧𝕖𝕣 𝕙𝕒𝕥𝕖 𝕪𝕠𝕦, 𝔹𝕒𝕣𝕓𝕖𝕣 ||Stanley Barber x reader

Is she like me?

~Dear diary, I hate Stanley Barber~

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-STANS POV-

"Hey Syd, you busy right now?" I decided to ring Syd to ask her what I should do. I wanted to just call y/n and make up, but I understood why she was hurt. I've always been ok with small flirting but actually liking a girl was not something I harbored all too often.

"Uh not really, why?"

"Please come to the Bowling alley"

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I cleaned some used shoes and tried tidying up the place that y/n had flung bowling balls at while waiting for Syd to arrive

"Sup Barber" Syd said lugging her bag on an empty seat in front of aisle 10

I sighed, Barber, y/n usually refers to me like that. "I need advice, I fucked up. Like really fucked up."

"Shit, what'd you do?"

"Ok so uh, y/n.. haha! Yea well uh see I said some things to her that I shouldn't have and I'm not sure if i should go to her and beg forgiveness, because is that too clingy? But if I don't I don't want her to think I don't care and-"

"You like her" Syd's shoulders danced over rubbing against my arm as she smiled not listening to the fact y/n most likely wants nothing to do with me at the moment

"Not the point of what I'm talking about!" I say flustered 

"So you don't like her?"

"Oh my god SYDNEY! Obviously I do how do I fix it though?"

"What'd you say"

"uhhh I may have.. ok this is out of context remember that!" I start trying to somewhat defend myself "I may have.. madeacommentaboutherdadoffinghimself.." I rush out clenching my eyes shut and scrunching my nose

"STAN!!"

"I was trying to upset her and telling her about us didn't work so that's all I could think of!" I slid down onto the floor backing myself against the ball machine with my face in my hands 

"What.. did you say about us?" she asks now on the floor next to me with her hand on my shoulder

"..That we slept together" I glance at her before hanging my head in between my legs

"STAN! You weren't supposed to tell anyone about that!" i feel her fist hit me slightly

"I know! I know! Please don't be mad I can't take the both of you right now.. I just don't know what to do."

Instead of looking at me with rage, her eyes filled with sympathy "I'm not mad.. maybe just try and talk to her when she reaches out?"

"..Yea I guess.." When she looked up at me it felt like when we were close again, before y/n came. Before when Syd gave me mixed messages, right now she gave them again.

Her eyes flickered from mine to my lips as I looked down to her with a massive headache. It was as if I was stuck staring at her, stuck in a big blue trance that her eyes gave off. I was stuck until she grabbed my cheek and pulled my face onto hers. Before I could think I was kissing her back. All I could think about was y/n. Not how this would hurt her, but imagining it was her. I replicated the way she moved her mouth with mine onto Sydney. In my head this was me and y/n, and I didn't want it to end.

"Really Stanley? I really wasn't good enough compared to her was I? 'Training' was just an excuse to tell me how you really felt? Was making me feel something funny to you??" I hear y/n in front of me. When I pull away from Sydney I suddenly came back to reality looking at y/n crying. I push Syd off of me and try to reach out to her as fast as I could.

"y/n I swear this isn't what it looks like" I began wanting to explain myself before she cut me off

"Oh cuz that isn't cliché! You know what Stan, FUCK YOU!" she cries backing away slowly 

"y/n-" Syd began to chime in, i glared at her when y/n interrupted her

"Sydney, please do NOT start too." y/n said trying to compose herself before she made one of the ceiling lights crash down leaving a smash in the floor that would've been Syd if she hadn't got up in time 

When she reached the door I wanted to do nothing but run to her explaining what she saw and apologize for the mess before this one. Sydney cleared her throat then making me turn to her as her gaze went to the light with a shocked face

"Th-the um wires have been being chewed by rats and whatever" I say swiping my hair out of my eyes exhausted from everything that went down

"..Is she like me??" She turned walking closer to me breaking the calmness i tried to put out for the whole day

"NO SYDNEY! SHE'S NOT LIKE YOU SHES LIKE Y/N!" I snap before looking at her frightened eyes and sighing "look, I'm sorry for yelling it's been a long day and i'd like you to leave." I close my eyes inhaling thru my nose

"Stan-"

"Please, just go. You've done enough helping today." I go towards the broom closet getting supplies to clean up the light fixtures broken pieces that were able to scavenge alone.