Mio Amore

CHAPTER 1

"Isabella White, live a little!" said my best friend Amy. She is really loud and funny. She's also so pretty and looks like some type of model.

I wish I could look like her. I am short, sometimes shy  and I like to make people laugh and smile because the life is to short to be angry but sometimes I wish I could be like her, funny and outgoing.  

Don't judge me I am not a sad teenager that wishes to be "Heather" but sometimes my anxiety controls the best of me and a loud voice in my head screams at me some bad things I really don't want to remember .

 Anyways we are really close with each other, I can tell her my problems and she even helps me when I have panic attacks.

My other friends say that she is like the demon and I am the angel, well I just don't like to curse and that doesn't necessarily mean that I am some kind of angel.

Now we were at the mall, just Amy and I, and she is trying to convince me to go to some party.

I am not a total nerd,  I just prefer 10000 times Netflix then Parties. Plus,  I haven't got to a party in my entire 16 years of existence and I would like to keep it that way.

"Please Bella, I am going to be with you all the time" oh not again. I shake my head no. I know she will leave me and I'm also a little scared. I mean what if something bad happens. 

 "look if you come I promise I will never ever touch your food again" oooh that's interesting. She always takes MY food when we are out. I don't know why but when someone asks me something and IJ really don't want to do it I say always yes. And it's something a lot of people take advantage but I can't help it I just can't.

 "and, I am going to buy you ice cream and pizza every weekend of this month" Now, that's really good. I mean who can deny food that would be a pure devil. 

I sighed

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"Omg It's your first party, I am so excited!" she  screams and I try to smile back at her knowing that this is important for her and also because she wants me to get me out of the shell and blah blah blah.

I look in the mirror and gasp. I look totally different.

  I am wearing a high waist denim black skirt with some vans and a white crop top. Even tho it's just a simple outfit I am very surprised because my curves show in the right place and I have some blush and mascara and I look very different for what I usually seem.

"Ok let's get going!" Amy smiled and her eyes gleamed. 

I have to keep remembering myself that I'm doing this for her. I mean she always is babbling about me going to a party so I think if I go to this one she will stop pleading me. And I also don't want to let her down, she's my bestfriend and she would do anything for me. I snapped out of my thoughts.

Oh wait I forgot my phone "yes I just need to find my phone and we can go" and she nodded at me

I found it in my room and also find my brother sitting on my bed scrolling through Instagram.

Let me tell you a little bit about Jason, he's 18 and really popular at school for his "looks and charms" well he's kind of handsome I mean we share the same brown color of eyes and he's really tall and plays Basketball. 

He also has a girlfriend which happens to be my bestfriend, yeah I know ho convenient *note my sarcasm*  but I am happy about them because they seem so in love with each other. They are totally cute together but a part of me is against their relationship because if they break up I will have to choose between them...

Sometimes I feel like third wheeling but he's my brother and she's my best friend so I can't help but love them to be together,  he hangs out with us a lot too. 

Of course,  my brother has some friends and hangs out with them too. Now I have to stop overthinking. 

"Hi sis, where are you going?" and looks at me in the eye daring me to lie. "just some party "I answered quietly  he glares at me and asks "WHO are you going with?"

Oh, no I am totally screwed, it was suppose to be a ladies night! I sighed "Amy"

"I am coming" he immediately says oh god he's so whipped, I give him my best glare "but-"

He shuts me up by slamming my door and goes downstairs.

I quickly pick my phone and slam my door shut. If i didn't want to go to the party before now I definitely hate the idea I mean I like him, he's my brother but he's kinda overprotective. And of course they will leave me alone to make-out. 

I go downstairs and was greeted with Amy pinned against the car and Jason kissing her really passionate. EW! "guys I am right here!" I said almost yelling and then Amy's eyes widen in realization, so I hop in the car before she says something like, I just couldn't help myself, your brother is hot and then she would laugh and say "you should have looked at your face".

They like to tease me a lot. I mean I am not a fan of make-out sessions. And they like to see me flushed and embarrassed when that happens. UGH sometimes they are really annoying but they always make me laugh.

I was sitting in the passenger seat and Jason glares at me, so I sighed knowing what he means and hop out of the car.  I thought family was first but now look at him whipped and being  a "gentleman" to his girlfriend. I may be selfish but I was always spoiled and treated like a baby. 

So Amy hops in the passenger seat while I was trying to hop on my seat but because I was so short I couldn't so I laughed and Jason helped me. 

Now we were listening to WAP and I have to say that I love the song even if I seem really sweet and innocent I love this kind of songs what can I say, I am really weird.

 I laughed at my brother, he was singing really loud "SEVEN DAYS A WEEK!" and Amy laughed at him and yelled "WET ASS-P****!" I laughed hysterically ,they fit so well for each other. 

"You will never have that because you are ugly and fat" screams the voice in my brain so I shake my head trying to forget what that voice is screaming and yelling. 

Key word: Trying 

Trying to forget,

 that is something really hard to do I can't help but but wonder when I will be able to...

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