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11) Loneliness

I felt a nudge, and look up. "Teardrop? You came.. Oh my god you came" I grin excitedly. I thought she left me.. Betrayed me for Demi!

But no I got it wrong! She's here.. With me I try to move to wrap my arms around her but they don't move. My whole body doesn't move. I can't move. I'm paralysed... Maybe I'm just cold.

"Shh shh shh" I hear her soothing voice as she slowly kneels down, patting my hair with her small warm hand.

"TEARDROP" I hear another female voice. Demi...

"Teardrop come here" She says in a friendly tone. Teardrop just giggles and stands to her feet. I try to stop her but I can't.

My body is stuck to the ground. No... I can't lose her. I shut my eyes tightly and open it, seeing Teardrop run over to Demi.

"Sissy" I hear Teardrop say to Demi as they slowly fade away.

I groan softly, my head ringing. I groan, reaching up for my head. Fuck these nightmares are awful. I sigh, rubbing my forehead softly. Probably a migraine coming down. It took me a while to realise it was actually light.. Sort of. The sky was orange... Sunrise.. I rub my eyes and sit up. That's when I realised. No one came.

I sigh, getting up off the dirty floor. No one bothered to run after me... To check on me... To find me. I watched as people just casually walked past as if I was just some hobo on the street.

What has this world come to?.. A girl laid down in an alleyway, tear stained eyes, no covers, in the freezing cold. No one stops to help. Such a selfish world. I rub the front and back of my jeans then adjust my hoodie.

I had to keep giving myself a reality check. I don't have any friends. I don't have a family that loves me. I don't have a boyfriend. I don't have anyone...

I wipe my arising tears from my eyes. I sniffle and pull my arms up the sleeves, wrapping them around my cold body. I start my journey back home but something stops me...

Maybe I should go check on Teardrop... Just to see if she's okay.. I sigh and nod to myself, walking back. "BELLA" I hear a shout.

"You're going to miss school! Get there now! Come on!" I hear the voice more distinctly. Fuck. Mr White.

"Noo I uh.. I'm... Err..." I groan but he is already pushing me to school. Maybe it's later than I thought.

I arrived at school with the patronising teacher, other people sneering at me. I couldn't give two more shits. I'm fucking lonely. I know that... I sigh, walking to my locker. I turn the combination lock. I always kept spare clothes in my locker.. Since my clothes always ended up with blood stains. Stupid Bullies...

I sigh, taking out some new clothes and walk to the bathroom. I didn't care what people think but I didn't want to walk around in clothes I slept in - in an alleyway. Once I changed, I unlocked the toilet door and leaned over the sink. I twist the tap, cupping my hands and splash the cold water on my face. I slowly stand up, looking in the mirror. Ugly. Fat. Whore. Bitch. Tra-

The door burst open, the girls laughing, "Tramp! Can't afford water?... Oh wait you can't!" They laugh to each other.

"Oh great one. Well done on that one. That must've took a lot of brain power for you to think of that Riley" I roll my eyes. I can't be bothered for her shit. Not today.

"Oh shut up. At least we have friends... Freak" she smirks, pushing me. I don't think she meant to push me as hard as she did but it caused me to fall back slightly, stepping back as I try to balance myself. I slipped on some water as my foot moved, my body crashing to the floor.

"Ouch.." I groan as my head hit the sink before I hit the hard floor. Fuck if this was a movie I would've been concussed or even better dead.. I wish. I rub my head, looking at my fingers for blood but nothing. I hate reality. I hate it. The day definitely couldn't get any worse.

I sigh, walking to the first aid room. I just wanted to get away from school. I pulled my sleeves down, looking at the Nurse. "Alright we've got to check your blood pressure. Everyone in the school has to do it. We're doing a yearly check of blood pressure and glucose levels blah blah" she rolls her eyes. Rude.

"No" I say, realising I would have to show her my arms. Hell no. She just raises an eyebrow at me and roughly grabs my arm. "Oh my god get off!" I scream at her, trying to push her away. I was going mental. She pinned me down.

"Shut up" she growls. Fuck her.

"Fuck you" I growl and she pulls my sleeves up.

She looks at my cuts and rolls her eyes "attention seeking whore" she mutters under her breathe. I look at her and look down.

This nurse needed a good beating. When she was finally done I ran out. I ran out the school and just kept running.

Where else can I go?... Anywhere but this shit hole. But one problem, I have no friends, no family, no money. I'm alone. Alone, trying to fight the battle of life. I can't do this... Not anymore.

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Lots of love,
-B x