Playing hard to get

I will forever love you

          ⚠️TW SELF HARM AND SUICIDE⚠️
Please do not read if you are sensitive to this topic

I walked up to my dorm and locked the door. Right then and there I melted to the ground in tears. Everything was numb. I couldn't feel anything. Not even my love you Draco, which made me cry even harder.

Was I really a dumb slut? Why is it always me? Why is it only me? Why am I the one that always get hurt?   Why me? Just why? Why am I still alive if no one loves me? Why am I still alive if I'm all just a bet? Why am I still alive if I'm just an object, not even a human being anymore? These were all the thoughts running through my head.

Before I wanted to do "it" I had to write a note. After I finished writing it I walked into the bathroom and grabbed a pair of really sharp scissors and went to sit in the bath tub.

I ran the scissors over my soft tan screaming getting deeper and deeper with every cut. I did both wrists and then lied in the bath tub crying, wishing I could just die faster. I had no will to live anymore. So I didn't want to. My eyes started to get heavy then next thing I know everything when black and the last thing I every saw was a picture hanging up of me and Draco.

_______________{Draco}_______________

I sat I'm my bed crying all day, and apparently so did y/n as I didn't hear a thing come from her room all day. Every body hates me now. Even my own parents, because y/n sent the videos to them as well.

It had been a couple of hours and lodes of people left notes underneath y/n's door but none of them were opened. When pansy went up to talk to her, she used the unlocking spell and went into her room.

A shrill cry broke the silence. It was pansy. I ran out of my room over to y/n's door and see pansy covered in blood crying on her knees. I walk into the bathroom and see y/n lying motionless in the bath tub with cuts all down her wrist, still gushing out blood. I drop to my knees silently crying. Teachers heard the screams and came rushing in moments later to see y/n lying dead in the bath tub. Snape immediately picked up her limp body and ran to the hospital wing while a faint tear rolled down his cheek. Screams from other students echoed from down the halls as I was to distraught to even leave her bedroom.

That's when I noticed it, a note on her bed saying dear Draco on the front. I opened it up and read it.

𝐷𝑒𝑎𝑟 𝐷𝑟𝑎𝑐𝑜

You were the love of my life, and I was fully In love with you the moment I saw you. The reason it took me so long to finally date you was because I lost trust in all men 2 years ago. My ex boyfriend's best friend raped me while he sat there watching, I had to go to therapy because of him. This resulted in me becoming really suicidal, and I cut myself regularly. I stop cutting my self however when I met you. That was until 2 weeks ago I found out you cheated on me. I started cutting myself again, and when I found out you got about her woman pregnant this just tipped it all over board for me and I couldn't hold on anymore. The only thing stopping me committing was you, until you stabbed me in the back. And here we are now I'm moments away from taking my life. I always loved you Draco Malfoy, and I know you'll always love me

-until I see you again in heaven
Love y/n
Bye bitches.                                             11/7/20 7:24am