I felt sick to my stomach thinking if tuskki and sydnee being together. I guess it waa bound to happen but now?
Why couldn't I be enough for him? I get it though he's perfect. I am not. my head Starts to fill with dark thoughts. I suddenly get the urge to throw up.
I run into the bathroom holding my stomach as I reach the bathroom I run to the toilet and I start to throw up.
Not even noticing hinata in the bathroom. I finish throwing up and hot tears stream down my face.
"hey hey. Yams are you okay?" I hear hinata say softly to me walking closer to me.
I wipe my tears fast and give hinata a small smile "yeah yeah I'm fine I guess I may have caught some thing. You shouldn't get to close. I'm sorry ill be going now." I say as I start to stand up
Flushing the toilet and walking past hinata.
"could you tell the coach I won't be coming to practice today? I just wanna go home. I'm not feeling well" I say opening the door looking at the floor.
"yeah. I will. Yams if you need anything I'm here for you okay?" Hinata says smiling at me but still looking a little worried.
"yeah its okay. I'm fine. Thank you though" I say.smiling through my teeth. Oh my god how dumb am I.
Hinata was so worried about me. I'm so stupud. I wish I was never here. I'm always in the way. Hinata is to good for me. So is tsukki. I say walking home.
No wonder tsukki doesn't like me. I'm so pathetic. Why do I have to be like this. UGH why can't I just be normal. I never asked to like tsukki. I never asked for them to get together. I NEVER ASKED TO BE HERE. I think to myself as warm tears start to form.
At this point I'm running home as tears start to fall. Streaming down my face. Making my tips of my ears pink and my nose pink.
I get to my house. Struggling to open the door. I finally open it I slam the door behide my running up stairs into my room.
I get to my room and jump in my bed throwing my backpack onto the floor.
I start to sob into my pillow. Screaming. IM SO WORTHLESS. IM SO STUPID. UGLY,
As my tears slowly stream down my face slowly. I start to feel nothing. Emotionless. Numb. My tears feel cold to the touch.
I slowly let out a shaky breath. Tired. I start to get sleepy. I get into my bed sheets and slowly start to fall asleep.
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The stars // Tsukkiyams
FanficI lay under the stars with tsukki. Staring at the sencerie about of And suddenly tsukki breaks the silence. "the stars shine brighter when your with me." Tsukki says
