MORE THAN THAT

Chapter 8

Stacy P.O.V

"Ugh... What ?" He asks shrinking his eyebrows meeting my eyes quickly. I can see him digging his palm as if he is hiding something.

" Did you have .... more than a friend feelings for me ?" I ask again. Iam not shy or ignorant to speak about feelings with anyone, especially with Henry. If I wanna know something, I ask directly. Juliet. I know.

" what are you talking about Stac ?" He scoffs which makes my hope fall a little. Do I expect him to say yes ?
Even though if its just Henry, I would like to hear that atleast someone crushes me.

I have always been a tough girl to handle among the boys. I was never seen as a girl who can be dated, I was always a girl with whom all the boys can be a best friend. Which is kind of nice most of the times, but everyone has a feeling that someone in some corner should notice us differently than others. More than a girl who is socially good.

" Henry... Let's not drag. Say yes if you had or no if you didn't . Why are you beating around the bushes ?"

" Iam not "

" Then fucking answer the question "

" May be.. I don't know " he reply bluntly and I just stare into his eyes. I can see the confused look.

As far as I know Henry, how tough he shows himself isn't even half of his shyness and feelings. He is good at hiding them to others, not to me. Atleast two years before. As I said I cannot deny that I have never dreamt what it would be like if me and Henry dated. I cannot ask more in a man, if he is my boyfriend.

" You don't know ? So you didn't have any feelings for me ?" I ask again and again just to get a yes from him. Y'all think Iam mad for sure.

" Does it matter if I did ?" He asks piercing through my eyes. Yes you dumbass.

" Ahh... Counter question ! Really ?"

He raises his eyebrows waiting for my answer.

" It does " I say quickly without giving it a second thought.

I don't know what got into me. I know you all wonder what happened to me suddenly after all that arguments that we had in the cafe, I was having a good time with Ken. We had small talks, flirtatious ones, funny jokes like real funny jokes until he spill the tea by saying and I quote ' So I guess Henry confessed his feelings after two long years. '. Oh yeah ! He said the whole thing in a single sentence. The moment I heard Ken's words I felt my breath deciding to kill me for a minute. I can stay angry on Henry any long I want, Iam capable of it but after knowing why he was acting so weird I just couldn't stop myself from showing my soft corner to him. I cannot deny that I like Henry, but I can hide them until I know he feels the same.

" Yes Stacy " I hear his voice snapping me out of my quick thoughts.

" Wha "

" Yes. I had, have and hopefully will have feelings for you. " He says and throws a smile at me which I have never seen in a way till now.

" Why didn't you just say me ?" I place question above question as a matter of fact that I cannot believe what he said.

" Do you think that's easy ? I mean.. oh my god. I have been friends with you from such a small age Stacy. I never wanted to be your friend, I always want more than that but I just couldn't say with all that you were going through. I didn't want me to be an another situation that you handled in your life " he says making me stand dumbstruck.

I can feel Henry nearing me and burn runs throughout the body. I can feel the tingle near my ears. My heart races like it's trying to prove something. I have never experienced something like this before.

" Hen.. you were there for me like no one was. You travelled my path with me even though you didn't have to. How would I see you as any one of my struggle ? I didn't care that my life is moulded in this way because I always had faith that you were in my life to compensate all the shit that Iam going through. You... " I step closer making him feel comfortable. What the fuck is happening ?

This is what I truely feel about Henry. I don't know whether confessing all this now is going to make any difference of what he talked about me on that particular fight. How long can I hang on the same thing ? I don't know.

" Me what ?" He steps closer.

" You.. are... You are amazing. The most beautiful relationship that I had is with you and how would I ever find a reason to avoid that ? Iam the one in loss Henry. But ... After that fight ... You really made me feel guilty of all the help that I got from you. I knew and I still know that you stated the truth but ...." I can feel my eyes tearing up and I start to dig my palms in nervousness. I put my head down as I couldn't face Henry.

" Stacy... Look at me " he raised my chin with his finger " Iam extremely sorry for what I said. You know I behave like an asshole when I get angry. I just... I didn't know how to react on situation and I know I handled it in the worst possible way. I never ever will even think of pushing you away... Everything just happened in a snap. I wasn't myself " he said and grabbed my small hands in his palms.

I don't know what is happening, all I know is I have never felt this way ever in my life. I don't know whether I will feel like this again in my life. It is extra special when I think Henry is the reason for this feelings.

" You know I never meant any of those words.."

" But that's the truth Hen. You think I dont know ? I mean... You said it. No one will ever say something that they haven't thought about it before. Words doesn't flow just like that." I say. His hand is still holding mine and I can sense the tears running on my cheek.

" I am not justifying what I did Stac. I will never. But... You know how much I love being around you. You know how much... Important you are to me. I wouldn't do anything that will hurt you. I was out of mind Stac. The panic was real. My sister was pregnant and when I came to know that you knew it.. I didn't know how to react. I felt like .... Distant. Even my sister was not comfortable enough to say me what happened. It sucks Stac. "

I stand there holding his hands for support and love to withstand. I understand the position he was put at that moment. I understand that he did what all the brothers would do. I understand he wanted to support his sister. Above all that, something which felt right was the words hee let out.

" I understand Hen. I will try.. I will try " I say and place my hand on his cheek to comfort him. He gently places a kiss on my palm which brings chills all over my body. I didn't intend for this to happen but iam glad this is happening.

" Well well well ! The bitch is back " says Terasa and folds her hand tight near her chest in anger.

Fuck Henry is not mine !