My Professor

it's out

Sunmi POV

I woke up with what felt like twice the weight of my head. FUCK! It was all A DREAM?! Did I kiss him in my dream? Oh my goodness. I touched my lips but of course there was no way to find out for real. I didn't even remember who brought me home last night. The last thing I remembered were these dark blue lights that kept blurring my vision.

My clothes were fresh. The caretaker might have changed me but I still smelled so gross. I jumped into the shower. Worst part about being sober is all the reality that hits you like a bulldozer all of a sudden. Apart from the fact that I had to find my uncle, I remembered that it was a weekday and OH FUCK I had slept through three lectures already.

I scurried out with my bag on one shoulder, down the street. Once again, I was glad I lived just five minutes away. Thankfully, it was lunchtime, so I could sneak in without anybody noticing. Da-kyung, I and a few others had an assigned table at the canteen.

Da-kyung, who sat talking to others, advanced towards me as soon as she saw me coming. She looked serious for the first time in so long.

"YOU BITCH!" her hand whipped across my face landing me on my knees. Her long nails made my lip bleed. I touched my warm swollen cheek with the back of my hand. I had no idea why she did that. It was worsened by the hangover. I could barely focus on anything. Everybody was staring at me. So fkn embarrassing.

As I rubbed my scraped foot, a warm liquid poured down my head. The crowd gasped as Da-kyung poured two cups of coffee on me. "DAKYUNG-AH!!" Tears welled up as I looked at her. My clothes, hair, body everything smelled of coffee. It wasn't very hot but burnt a little at the top of my head where it hit first.

"SON DA-KYUNG! LEE SUNMI! To my office! RIGHT NOW!" Jiwon yelled from across the row. Da-kyung nudged my elbow aside with her knee as she huffed and followed him. I staggered to my feet dragging my coffee soaked bag along. Everyone now spoke in hushed tones as I walked past then wiping my face on the small part of my sleeve that was left untouched by coffee.

I had spare clothes in my uncle's locker and the permission to shower. All sportspersons who practiced early morning were allowed to use the shower. I heard Jiwon scolding Da-kyung as I entered his office in a fresh pair of clothes. However, I couldn't stop smelling coffee on me. My shoes smelled like it and so did my bag. Blech!

"I told you! It's personal!"

"You poured coffee on her! Don't give me that dumb excuse!"

"I- Oh Sunmi-ya come here quick! Tell him that he doesn't need to know WHY I poured coffee on you!"

I looked at her cluelessly. She moved closer and whispered, "do you really want me to tell him that you kissed Suwon last night?"

FUCK! That was real! SHIT! NO! FUCK! UGH! Wait! How did she even know??????

"It isn't a big deal ssim,"

"See?" Da-kyung pointed her hand at me, "now can I leave?"

"Whatever your personal matter is, don't create a scene here again." he said as she left. Jiwon was quite dissatisfied by how I didn't tell him what was going on.

"Sunmi-ya .... What's going on?"

"nothing..."

"At least you don't lie to me"

"just drop it okay!" I snapped.

"Look I know you're worried about Jinnie. We'll find him. I promise!"

"Stop lying to me! Just stop! I know he's with you!" I knew I was right when his expressions slightly changed. That's all I needed to confirm my hunch. The previous night when I called Jiwon acted too calmly for someone who had been freaking out for two days straight.

"he's not with me..."

"Are you happy now that he chose you over me?" As much as I shouldn't have said that, I couldn't stop. I had the right to be angry. If he wanted to move in with Jiwon, he could tell me!
Jiwon didn't speak any further.

"You both are liars!" I walked out of his office.

I had no idea what next class was, I was late to it too. It didn't even matter anymore. I slid the classroom door open, ready to be stared at by everybody.

"Mh!" exclaimed Suwon who was in a particularly bright mood today. Placing everything else down, he approached me at the doorstep. "Didn't expect you to show up today," he said softly with a smile. On seeing the bandage near my lip, his hand automatically advanced to touch it but I moved away reminding him that we were still in class. My gaze landed on Da-kyung, unintentionally. She glared at me. Suwon asked me to take my seat.

"You owe me two cups of coffee!" A guy yelled from across the room at me. FUCK! I pinched the bridge of my nose scrunching up my face.

"Excuse me?" Suwon asked.

"At lunch, I couldn't drink coffee because of two girls," he giggled.

"I'll pay for your cheap coffee so shut up now!" said Da-kyung standing up from her seat.

"Can someone tell me what is happening?!" asked Suwon, banging the textbook on the desk.

"Da-kyung whaaaaacked Sunmi!" said someone from the row ahead. "And then poured coffee on her!" said another. I kept sinking lower in my seat with each statement, covering my face. I didn't want to see his reaction.

"What did you do that for?" he asked with forced calmness.

"She deserved it for whatever she did last night."

"last night...?"

"Professor Eun has scolded me enough. I don't think I have to tell you why I did it."

Suwon probably understood, so he asked her to sit down and completely shoved that topic away. I could feel his eyes on me from time to time throughout the rest of the lecture. I didn't even know what to do anymore. My friend hated me. My uncle didn't want to talk to me. My dad was probably gonna scold me for drinking and passing out on a weekday. I ruined whatever was between Suwon and me by kissing him. Great fucking job!

I didn't try to talk to Da-kyung, partially for the fear of being splashed with cold water or something else. I had seen her get angry less than five times my entire life and once was because of me. It was so tiring. I went straight home and plopped down on the couch. How had I managed to make a mess of my life in such a short period of time. Looks like it's the only thing I'm good at.