Walp, I need advice
STORY TIMEEEEEE
so in the middle of September. My ex told my friend to tell me to hit him up. I did because he wanted to talk, big mistake. That night, he told me he loved me and missed me still. I didn't have anything to say but because I write to calm down or think, I wrote A song and he seen it. So after that, I found out he had A girl, imagine how dumb I felt. And then he started calling me baby and my love.... I couldn't lie anymore, I told him I still loved him and that I missed him... And because he has the same problems as me, he has 'sad boi hours' as he calls them. And he gets into these really sad moments. But when he started talking to me, he started to feel better I guess. So anyway, we started talking them him and his girl broke up and we got closer... The night they broke up, he told me he wanted.to date me. I told him that I wanted to go slow and then I started calling him bae and then a week later, he started ignoring me and becoming distant. Mind you, He only ignores me when he feels guilty about something. So I found out he had another girl. So I was like fine. Ill keep talking to him because we are each others support system and we keep one another stable. So I told him to get over it, suck it the fuck up and fucking talk to me. He be doing the stupidest shit for no reason. So then we started talking again, and we in class and he staring at me and then tells me I look cute. I'm like we just got done doing this and you wanna keep stepping back. Like stop. So I told him no and everything but it kept going till I agreed and then we went back to saying I love you and calling each other bae and baby and then he started ignoring me again. This time for a week. So I get worried and I find out he broke up with his girl be she's she cheated and only dated him for his dog and now he gotta another girl. I'm salty asf because we still love each other and we keep going back and forth and like he smokes and when he smokes he get horny and gets freaky and shit and we be falling asleep together on facetime and we start teasing each other and then he still be going back to his current girl. And like when I get bold and tell him what I want, he be saying since when did you become so bold? Like it happened over night like the fuck!? So then we just keep going back and forth and its annoying. Like I tell you I want you and you still with that other girl. And I promised myself that I'm not going to get hurt like that again, and then my friend will tease us and tell us we finna get married and have kids or that if we don't get married he played Cupid for nothing. And then he be sending me pictures😩😩 (not of his dick, his face)and it needs be killing meee like stopppp. And dennnn he be doing the most and it kills me like uhhh. And he keep going back and forth like make up yo damn mind. I tell him I'm not gonna be around forever and he drags me In his spell. Like he tell me I'm beautiful and cute and he will call me his and I still tell him what I want and I don't think he understands that concept or he doesn't want to hurt me either... He makes me feel like I'm the only girl in the world and I know I have an affect on him. Like even before he gets high, he tells me he's horny, (😂😂it be funny asf)and then when I tell him I make him feel some type of way, he tells me its the weed, like no it isn't, we both know that. and then when we fall asleep, it is so cute because when we wake up, he always staring at me and calling me sleepy head and he tells me im innocent because imma Virgin. Like if I'm so innocent, how did I give you a boner? That shit was dead asf. But I low-key thinks it turns him on when he calls me that. And we Just have history and chemistry and he knows that but he doesn't wanna do anything... He be so confusing and giving me mixed signals... Like I have no idea what to do anymore. And then I asked him if he still loved me and he said yea, ill always love you. You're mine. He said that and I was dead as hell. Like you feel that way, do something about it... Stop treating me like imma friend... stop treating me as if you don't want me... I'm just so confused... What do I do?
(Sorry it's so long... I haven't told anyone this and it makes me feel so much better now that its like out there)
