Want To Want Me

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I was left dumbfounded.I thought he liked me? Akala ko ba ako? Bat biglang si Paula?

I was taken aback on what he confessed so it took me a couple of minutes to reply to him.

"Oh you mean Paula Tan? HAHAHAH sure I'll try my best Eli, malakas ka sakin eh"

"Talaga? Thank you Ally i owe you a lot"

I didn't respond to his last message dahil di ko na makita ang screen ng phone ko dahil sa mga luhang ayaw tumigil sa pagtulo, I was having a hard time finding Maeve's name so I can tell her the news.

Allyson Valdez
Sis tangina talaga

Maeve Tan
Oh? Anyare sayo? Broken ka sis? Yan Elijah pa nga

Allyson Valdez
Si Paula gusto niya boi, tangina ang cousin mo bet niya hahah

Maeve Tan
Sure ka jan sis? Baka biro biro mo lang yan ah.

I sent her some screenshots ng convo namin ni Elijah para maniwala siya, she was sad for me and at the same time angry at Elijah. She was using all the cuss you can imagine and I was just reading them all, stopping myself from creating a loud sobbing noise. That night I cried myself to sleep.

Later that morning my friends asked me what happened so I was oblique to tell them. I was crying the whole time I was telling them what Elijah confessed.

Maeve was just standing in front of me hands crossed on her chest looking at me like she was about to murder the guy who made me cry. I asked them a favor na kung pwede they won't talk to Elijah and let me handle everything on my own.

I was lucky enough to approach Paula that time, since walang klase dahil we were told to decorate our room for the upcoming christmas party. Sinama ko si Maeve sakin para mas madali kong ma approach si Paula.

"Pau may gusto daw sabihin si Ally sayo"

"Hi Pau sorry for disturbing you"

"Ate Ally hello, di naman po ako masyadong busy kaya di kayo distorbo. May kailangan po kayo?"

"You know Elijah diba?"

"Castillo? Opo kilala ko "

"He likes you bebe girl yieee. Baka you wanna talk to him?

"Po? Ay ayaw ko po i mean di po sa ayaw ko pero name niya lang naman po alam ko hehe"

I continued conving paula to try and talk to Elijah but she really doesn't want to. I informed Elijah at syempre nalungkot siya. Ako ang nasa tabi niya nung nalungkot siya dahil dun.

Call me evil but i was really happy that Paula turned him down. I looked at him with a sad facial expression but my heart is celebrating.

Days passed and still no message from Elijah so I decided to find something that will make me busy to forget him and at the same time I'll earn money. I scrolled on my Facebook and Instagram, I looked at what people are selling during quarantine.

I was planning to sell cookies pero napakadami ng nagbebenta ng ganun so I settled on selling pastillas so it won't cost me much when I buy some ingredients, my ever supportive grandma helped me with it so I wasn't really having a hard time. From batch 1 to batch 5 my little business was doing well I can say.

Weekend nun at walang order ng pastillas so I decided to pay Maci a visit. I went to their little store kasi pagdating ko sa bahay nila her older told me that she was there. When I arrived there she was carrying her niece.

"Babysitter ba part time mo sis?" bungad ko sa kanya.

"Gago HAHAHAHA"

"Buang may bata sis, bibig nito walang preno oh. Hi Mama Jen." bati ko sa Tita ni Maci

"Oh Ally napa bisita ka nak? "

"Namiss ko po kayo eh HAHAH" nagkamustahan kami ni Mama Jenny bago ko chinika si Maci.

"Sis miss ko na si Elijah" sabi ko kay Maci habang sini-stalk si Elijah kaya di ako nakailag agad ng hilahin niya buhok ko.

"ARAY! Tangina ang sakit ah!"

"ABA! Alin mas masakit yung ginawa ni Elijah o paghila ko sa buhok mo? Gaga ka wag kang ma aray aray jan." bumalik siya sa pagkakaupo niya kaya inayos ko ang buhok ko.

"Sis parang matatanggal anit ko sa pag hila mo pramis." sabi ko habang hinihimas yung ulo ko.

"Yun na nga Maci diba I'm selling pastillas tas miss ko na si Elija-"

"Hep! Hep-"

"Hoeray" pang-aasar ko sa kanya

"Seryoso na kasi Ally, namiss mo kaya e me-message mo kung gusto niya bang bumili ng pastillas para may meet up?"

"Bingo! Nadali mo sis" pagkatapos ko siyang inisin to the max kumain kami ng ice cream. After lots of chika umuwi nako sa bahay namin at plinano kung paano ko e me-message si Elijah.

Kung sports lang ang pagiging tanga, marupok, at martyr sis sa Barkada namin ako ang champion. I've been in love with this guy, specifically Elijah Castillo for years now. I've been his friend for almost a year yet I still get nerveracked when i'm about to message him.

"Tangina Ally umayos ka, kumalma ka tol. Si Elijah lang yan sabihin mo lang hi gusto mo pastillas bili ka." kinausap ko sarili ko para di ako masyadong kabahan. "okay here goes nothing"

Allyson Valdez

Hi Elijah, good evening! I'm selling pastillas you wanna buy? 30 pesos only 20 pieces per pack.