Dear Diary

chapter six

<Amy>
Dear Noah,
Today marks the end of the first week of high school. I can't believe we actually got through a week without getting hurt or getting into some sort of drama, of course minus the fact that mAiSiE was still in our class, and evidently flirted with daniel every 5 seconds she had the chance to. Like yesterday- Thursday, when we had english literature, right before lunch. We were analysing Romeo and Juliet, of course, a classic. She kept shooting looks at Daniel every second the english teacher even mentioned the word love, while Daniel reciprocates that look back at her. If they knew how the story really ended, I doubt they'd be shooting each other romantic looks.

Of course, Isabella and I were smart enough to notice this, and had to hold back our laughter while we spotted them practically drooling at each other.

In the words of Isabella Hartwik, "Bro, you guys broke up a year ago, GET OVER IT.". I couldn't agree more. Speaking of Daniel, it wasn't just laughter I held back, it was the tinest feeling of hurt. Noah I haven't told anyone but you, I might be harbouring feelings for Daniel..

HEAR ME OUT. I KNOW I SAID I WOULD NEVER LIKE HIM THE LAST TIME I TALKED (OR WROTE) TO YOU, BUT THAT WAS A WEEK AGO (ACTUALLY THE STARTING OF THE WEEK BUT WHATEVER), AND I CAN COME TO REALISE A LOT IN ONE WEEK. He's been my boy best friend since I can remember, we have so many inside jokes together and when we talk there isn't a chance we let go to insult each other. He's supported me through the tiny struggles that I've faced as a teenager, and I wouldn't have asked for a better best friend than him. But, this, this is new. I hate this. I hate liking people and especially having them (200% sure about this), not like me back. I tried telling Taylor during Advanced Biology, the only class we have together, and during hometime, but, it's not easy. How do I tell her that I might like a guy, a guy who we've been friends with for like, ever, and it's only the first week of high school. What would other people think, and cmon, Daniel? No chance. My man's still in love with Maisie, I wouldn't be surprised if they got back together. Also, can I just talk about Trevor and Taylor? THERE'S CLEARLY SOMETHING THERE. But then again, It's Trevor, I can't judge if he likes Taylor or Maya, from the shit he says to me on the bus. It's always "OH TAYLOR AND I TALKED ABOUT THIS TODAY", but when we're at school, he's always with Maya. Does he like Taylor? Or is he ghosting her for Maya? Why are guys so confusing? Noah, you should know, you're a guy yourself. Oh jeez screw guys, I have ages to work this love shit out.

Besides, we had to start signing up for these goddamn events and competitions from day 1 of the school day itself. I have the debate contest, the swimming cup, the art contest to prepare for in the coming months- along with this I have a bunch of homework to do, plus our weekly tests will begin next week. We're barely a week into high school and so much? My little 14 year old heart is going to burst.

Besides, what sucks even more is that i haven't had a chance to talk to Maya, Jenine, Jeremy or Augustus in the past week. Andy too, but we aren't really close. Even TAYLOR and I couldn't talk. Let's not even get started on Dan. He spends all the transit periods in between classes talking to maisie, and leaves Isabella and I alone.

Trevor and I obviously had the bus to catch up, and I'm so thankful we live near each other and take the same bus.

The week barely had anything interesting (of course, except for my great revelation that I like Daniel, but no one even knows about that). I'll probably tell Taylor, and put it inside this same diary entry, I'm too lazy to make a seperate one just for her reaction, though I'm pretty sure it'll be so elaborate I might even need a separate entry just for that.

*weekend*

I met Taylor, Maya and Jenine for coffee today at our favourite cafe, the baristo. Yes, don't worry, I told them. Maya's reaction was of course, as chill as ever, Taylor, she broke out screaming that she was right, as much as I hate to admit it, and Jenine went "OMG DETAILS" and when I shrugged, she glared at me and went "Okay, hey, good for you, now let's get back to ludo please?"We all let out a good laugh and well, went back to ludo. Why did I think this would be so hard? They're my best friends. Of course they didn't care. Obviously, I wasn't going to tell the boys until a while because too much work, they would definitely tell Daniel, and I don't plan on telling him, ever.

I really don't have the energy to write more for today, I'll go listen to a bunch of Tate songs and drown myself in misery even though I really don't have anything to be sad about. Good ni- is it night? I don't even know, adios again because that's the only word I can remember :)

xxx
a/n
disclaimer :
HEY.
real life amy, does not like (whoever you assume him to be)real life Dan.
real life amy hates love.
ok well no, real life amy (I'm calling her rla), likes love in movies and shows but hates love around her 🙂👍
ok bye!

edit: so my joint book partner decided to publish this part without my permission. and i just wanna say-
real life amy does not like real life dan.
interpret it whatever way u want
if you know you know bye bye

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xxx