Our wonderland (Yoonmin)

Chapter 5: OUR FIRST NIGHT

Jimin Pov:

Everybody was laughing and having fun and I just ate my food, they did this for me? I was still in shock. Everyone was smiling at me it was like the light I was hoping to find, it was warm and real.

This must be what it feels like to be seen, not alone in a dark void. But will my memories come back to me, do I need to remember myself? What if they won't like who I am before? They know me like this but what if I regain my emotions, attitude and memory and change will they still be like this to me?

"Hey jimin you seem to be troubled? Are you ok?" Namjoon asked me. I brushed it all off and hoped for the best, "hey wanna talk somewhere private?" He asked. I nodded and he helped me stand up, we went inside the house and onto to the stairs to reach the balcony. We finally reached the balcony and namjoon sat me in the chair, "you can tell me what's bothering you, maybe..I can help you in any way I can." He said smiling showing his dimple, "thanks hyung...I just thought what if you guys would hate me if I remember my memories." I said "What if you guys might not like me if I do remember myself?" I looked up trying to hold the tears up, namjoon was silent for a moment.

"Well if you do remember yourself and it might make us uncomfortable at first but it can change as long as you remember who you are now." He said "Because only you can change yourself you can either be yourself right now or be the past you but you can be both, because no matter how who you are, you're still jimin." I started to tear up as he said those words, "I might not have known you that much yet but you seem like a nice guy, but remember that even if you seem troubled just remember problems can be solved in the simplest ways." He said "For now take one step at a time remembering who you are and take another step for knowing you are right now."

He looked up at the bright moon and I wiped the tears out of my eyes, "But will it matter if I don't remember who I was before and just try to be someone new..." the thought just came out of me but I needed an answer.

"Well even if you do try not to remember your past, it will just come to you one by one when something or someone reminds you of something that was a part of your past before." He said "Besides if you don't remember who you are, what about your friends and family they must be worried about you right now." I didn't think that through, "What if they separate me away from you guys?" I asked.

"Well if they do then if we're allowed we can visit you but if we're not we'll find a way to you." He gushed a laugh and looked at me, I smiled and I was finally able to stay calm. I looked at namjoon who starred at the sky with a sad face, he seemed worried or upset about something.

"Namjoon hyung, you seem upset do you want to talk about something?" I asked. "If it's ok with you ofcourse." He sighed and played with his hands, "jimin I know you might not get it but I have this strange feeling that I don't understand at all..." he said. "What will you do if you like someone but they seem to like someone else?" I thought about it for a second and I didn't know if my answer might help him at all.

"For me if you like someone else it'd best if you confess before it's too late but if they didn't accept it then it might take some time but you need to accept it." I looked at him and he looked down on the floor, "yeah but what if the pains stays? And you still like this person?" He asked. "The scar will slowly fade away hyung, I don't know but it takes a little time and you need patients." I said.

He was still thinking of an response and I knew my answer wasn't good for an advice, "Hyung, can you describe the person you like?" I asked out of nowhere making him seat up straight, "I-" he stuttered as jin hyung opened the door, "oh thank goodness I thought you two went somewhere else." Jin said as he walked towards us, "what were you guys talking about?" Jin asked.