Loving Alsina

The Talk

Amaris POV

Mom: Amari what's wrong?

I knew I had to ask her but I didn't think it would be this hard. I had just walked into the house but if I didn't ask now I knew I didn't have the courage to ask later.

Amari: Mom I have something to ask you. Before you give me an answer can you please really think about it?

Mom: You're pregnant? Amari please don't tell me you are because your in high school and we had big plans for you just for you to-

Amari: No I'm not pregnant. Why is that the first thing you asked?

Mom: Your sister has been sick a lot and I'm nervous of what this really might be. I don't think it's a cold.

I sighed. If Destiny was pregnant she would never let me go off with August across the damn world. I sat down on the stool and ran my fingers through my hair.

Amari: August is leaving, Mom.

My mom walker over to me and rubbed my back.

Mom: Where is he going? Music stuff I'm guessing?

Amari: Yep he's going on tour.

Mom: I know you like him and stuff so I guess you guys will be FaceTiming a lot, I'll buy you a laptop.

She kissed my forehead and I slapped the table. She jumped and stared at me.

Mom: You don't want a laptop?

Amari: No, I want my boyfriend to stay home but he's not. I don't want to do the long distance thing ever.

Mom: Amari, you don't have a choice. He's not going to give up his dream.

Amari: I never asked him to. I'm supportive of his dreams and that's why I want to go with him.

I covered my mouth quickly realizing what I had just said. My mom stared at me for about ten seconds before opening her mouth and speaking.

Mom: You what?

Amari: I wanna go with him. I'm tired of being sad, I'm tired of doing this same routine. I wanna go with August.

Mom: What the hell is going on in your head? Amari your 18, you aren't going anywhere with some boy.

Amari: Yes exactly I'm 18! I should be able to do what I want regardless of what you think.

Mom: You're a senior in high school? You're about to throw away everything you worked for just for him? Do you hear how you sound? This is ridiculous as hell!

I stared at my mom. She was right. I worked so hard to be a senior. After dealing with depression and my dad leaving I wanted to get better. But this life wasn't making me happy. August made me happy and if he left without me, I'm gonna be lost just like I was when my dad left.

Amari: Listen to me, August has made me happy these last few months. Yes I'm young which is why you should let me go. To explore and to live.

Mom: You can fucking explore and live AFTER high school Amari. End of discussion.

I got up and walked upstairs to my room and slammed the door so hard I heard a picture fall and break.

Mom: Slam another door in this house, Amari! You guys are so fucking ungrateful! I do everything for you and you asked to give up your education for dick! I'm tired of being nice, being nice has gotten me no damn where!

I rolled my eyes and laid in my bed. I swear I hated it here. Ever since my dad left, it's been hard to really feel happy. I took therapy , focused on my school work and made two friends and I still didn't feel happy. I was lost. I never looked for love because my dad showed me, no man would ever love me enough. But August was so different. I started sobbing into my pillow and I heard my bedroom door open. Jasmine came into my room and I continued to lay there.