The Tale of a Tinder Love

Beginning of 2020

This is the year my life changed for the better. I downloaded tinder again just for the heck of it. I found out he had messaged me months ago. So I tried to shoot my shot and messaged him again. I waited and he did end up messaging me back. We got to talking and we started talking on kik instead of tinder. Oh boy was that a fun time, i am still trying to get to know him months later. He really did change my life. I went down a dark path and i apologized for going down that hole when i messaged him and he said dont apologize for your depression. I knew at that point i could not let him go.

We went back and forth messaging and texting for a while, then it moved to instagram as well. I wish i could just make him mine and that be my happy ending, but we both have been broken from our past relationships. Iwish he would talk to me more often like i do to him. I want to be there for him, hold him on his bad days, celebrate the good days, and just watch him grow into an awesome human being. I just wish he would open up a little more to me. I constantly tell him if he wants to talk i'm here for him. He always seems to just not message me on his bad days, or his busy days. Those are the hardest days for me. Because i want to be there like he is for me.

This pandemic has been hard. For everyone. I was considered essential, and had to work with no extra pay for risking mine and my families life. I know we all want this to be over, but i really want to meet this man in person. I can't because me and him live in the two states that are high risk. I just wish i could curl up in his lap like a cat and just enjoy his presence. He truly is someone special to me. I really enjoy his good days because we talk for hours and its really nice. It makes up for early in the week. I will always send a good morning and goodnight text, and even in the middle of the day asking how he is.

I hope he enjoys them like i like sending them. I hope i don't annoy him with how many i send. I'm just trying to send a little positivity to him. Everybody could use that nowadays. This pandemic has hit me hard. I am working 40 some hours a week when i am only part time. I feel like i am slowly losing my mind at work. My other problem is that i don't know if he is into BDSM. I asked but its also monday so he may not see it until late tonight when i am already asleep, because i have to be up early for work the next day. Maybe in my next part i will put some bdsm smut and fantasy's in it. That will have to wait unntil tomorrow.