Bros I hella hate quarantine and shit.
Everyday feels the same.
It's so boring and annoying and frustrating to do the same things over and over again with no way to change it. I want something new.
The main cycle for me is wake up, watch Netflix, go on social media, eat a little bit, listen to music maybe, smoke, go to bed. Sometimes I go skate. Sometimes I have school work to do.
I honestly need change like any change.
I'm really struggling with it tbh.
I try giving myself things to look forward to so that I can remember that shits like this now but things will eventually be different. Even the little things are better than sitting alone in my room doing nothing.
Here's my schedule:
Thursday, 10/15/20 (tomorrow) - maybe babysitting, if not then nothing.
Friday, 10/16/20 - maybe babysitting, if not then nothing.
Saturday, 10/17/20 - Henry comes home, fall family photoshoot up at the property.
Sunday, 10/18/20 - nothing, Henry will be here tho.
Monday, 10/19/20 - nothing.
Tuesday, 10/20/20 - probably moving rooms.
Wednesday, 10/21/20 - therapy with mom.
Thursday, 10/22/20 - nothing.
Friday, 10/24/20 - nothing.
Saturday, 10/25/20 - going to Portland, seeing my mom & picking up Reagan.
Then the whole week after that I'll be with Reagan!
That week a lot of change will happen which I'm excited for, and I'm hoping the new feeling lasts a while even after Reagan leaves. Because when those new things become normal, that's when shits gonna suck again. After that I won't have a lot to do until I turn 15 and a half, then I can get my drivers permit. That's almost 6 months of doing nothing. It's gonna suckkkkk.
Moving rooms will be good for me. I always move my room around and reorganize things so that it feels different for a while until it gets normal. I told myself I wasn't gonna move my room around again until I switch my room next week. I'm switching rooms with Jayden and Mackenzie. I'm excited.
Then when Reagan's here, I'm gonna get presents which ik will be new decorations for my room and stuff. So that's gonna be change. I'm also getting my septum pierced, dying my hair, getting a tattoo. Those are like bodily changes which I'm excited asf about. Plus Reagan and I will be out doing stuff together which is gonna be fun asf.
When I'm alone I can't find the motivation to really go do anything like go on walks or whatever.
But yea I just thought I'd share that. I also know I'm gonna go clothes shopping so that gives me a chance to change up my style to something that makes me happy. I'm excited for that.
Ok yyeaaah. Bye ✌️❤️
