Hey
I know I literally haven't said shit in this book like I said I was gonna
But I got a therapist I've had her for like one and a half or two months
Right now its 11pm and I have therapy in 9 hours at 8am
I'm probably not gonna go to sleep before then because I woke up at 8pm lmaoo
I've been nocturnal like all week. On Sunday my sister and I got in a big fight and she said some shit and ugh. Ever since then I've been in my room. I only went out once when she told me there was food so I got some and went back to my room lol.
My mental state has been getting really bad.
Speaking of eating, I hate it. I eat like once a day if not then not at all. I feel sick when I eat or drink water. Idk why and it sucks bc I'm getting skinnier and that's the opposite of what I want.
My sister was all like "that's an eating disorder" and i was like okay can you help me, and she basically said "i do the same thing i can't help you i can't even help myself." and i'm just like 😐 that's what you're here for wtf. to help me.
Before our fight I would eat a little and get full and tell her and she said to eat more anyway and I'd be like "I'm not gonna force feed myself" and she told me I have to😫💀. I haven't been.
But yeah I'll lyk how therapy goes in a few hours.
