Plastic smile

chapter 1

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🌸Hey guys pls tell me if my grammars or spellings are wrong
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♡~~Hinata's pov~~♡

I was woke up by a sun shining directly at my face 'ugh how troublesome' standing up on the floor covered with my own pool of blood which is caused by my own father is a pain in the ass

*sigh* ...I kinda got used to it since its been happening for a year

I got up wincing in pain trying not to make a noise that my father might hear so I silently went to the bathroom and showered,
after showering I covered my body with bandages and make up, there are new and old bruises

I look up to the mirror seeing myself look so emotionless and my puffy red eyes, I brushed every problems I had acting like I didn't got thrown away around and then covered everything with makeup and told myself
'smile Shoyo everything is gonna be okay' I said while trying to check if my smile looks obvious

"Natsu wake up" I slightly shake her as she groans "morning brother" we walked down the stairs and gave her the sandwich I prepared while she was asleep, we got ready for school together "Natsu lets go" I said whispering

she walked straight to me without making any noise because she knows what has been happening around her, I feel sorry because she's been seeing lots of tragic things happen

I dropped Natsu to her school and went straight to mine 'SHOOT I DIDN'T CHECK THE TIME I MUST BE LATE' I ran to my school panting  cuz I thought I was late

as I entered the classroom my friend's we're waving at me "Sho-chan you're early today"
"aaahh thank gosh *huff*"
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3rd person view

he heard volleyballs echo after smashing on the ground, before entering he took a quick glance around him, the wind brushing his hair, leaves dancing on the tree, and a fresh air with a silent surrounding except only his teammates playing

he entered the gym and saw his teammates waving and smiling at him except Tsukishima and Kageyema of course

and of course I smiled back with a big FAKE smile
I hate it... I hate faking a smile

"just in time Hinata" said Sugawara

"ALRIGHT lets practice"

"yes captain!" all of them said

while practicing I was missing a lot of tosses because the bruise hurts more than the last years

"OI BOKE" kageyama shouting at me

"KEEP YOUR HEAD IN THE GAME AND STOP SPACING OUT"

he grabbed my collar and I started acting like I'm afraid so this mf would stop, I got used to it but sometimes it hurts

"Kageyama stop!"Suga and Daichi shouted at Kageyama

"tch why are you so weak" ugh this btch

"Kageyama!" said Tanaka and Noya

❋Time skip❋

after we finished praciting, our captain told us that we were having a match with nekoma and fukurodani and the other teams

"YAY" me, Tanaka, and Noya shouted and the rest of the team just smiled except Kageyama and Tsukishima not knowing my smile was fake

after cleaning up the court

"EY NOYA bro don't leave me"

"hahahaha catch me Ryu"

"Oi don't run" Daichi scolds Noya and Tanaka

"yeah one of you might wake up a spirit and chase you both hehehe.." Suga said with a mischievous smirk

they walked out as they waved at me saying goodbye, I slowly watch them walk away and sneakily got to the bathroom, I just stared at the floor 'ugh the stupid voices'

I slowly rolled up my sleeves seeing new and old cuts, I took out the blade...

"I'm so weak right Kageyama?" I stopped while pulling out my blade remembering what my mom said

flashback
"SHOYO WHY ARE YOU CUTTING YOURSELF!?"

"I saw a person talking to someone and he has red lines in his arm's and he said he cuts his self, and I thought it would look cool!" I smiled

my mother sigh's
"Shoyo remember cutting is not good for your health, never do it again ok?"

"oh okay mommy!"
end of flashback

oh..

'I'm sorry... I will try my best not to just for you and Natsu' I thought while tears freely streaming down my cheeks

'I wanna hide this image of me I don't want them to be disgusted by me...*silent sobs* everything is gonna be alright' I thought with a sad smile and eyes full of tears

I dried my tears trying not to make anyone notice but my eyes were still puffy red

I got to Natsu's school seeing her standing at the exit waiting for me

"brother why is your eyes so red" she asked looking at me confused

"oh I just rubbed my eyes too much because a dirt got in my eye😊"

"oh okay brother!" she said with a cheerful tone, I smiled

I promise Natsu I will keep you safe... please keep that smile and tone, don't cry, big brother will try to protect you

well... I've been fake smiling for years its not very hard to do it, its not that bad so I guess I will just hide all the pain with a smile

I picked up Natsu and got home with her safely... well not so safe when we got inside

"OI BRAT"

"...Natsu hide quick!"
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❃Hello I'm editing the whole book, I'm gonna fix it a bit-❃
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