Fallen Angel

The First Time

Taehyung's POV

Before I went to pick Jin up from school, I stopped at a pharmacy and stocked up on condoms and lube of assorted flavors. I wanted to be prepared for Jin and make things easier since it's his first time.

But then I made myself nervous, thinking about if I will choke and not be able to perform.

What if Jin expects his first time to be something sweet and romantic, or maybe something like out of a porn scene.

I don't know what will actually happen, but I want it to be perfect and memorable for him.

When I pull up to the front of the school to pick Jin up, I spotted Mark and Lucas walking towards him, then quickly turn away when they saw me.

I can only imagine what they were planning to tell Jin.
He jumps in the car and he leans over to kiss me.

"Hello gorgeous." He tells me.

"Gorgeous?
Wow, you must've had a good day at school today.
Anything you'd like to share?"

He shakes his head and says, "Nah, I just missed you and I'm happy to see you. That's all."

I don't think he's telling me everything, but I won't prod.

I drive us to my apartment and I had let Jungkook know to find somewhere else to be today.

That way my baby won't be self conscious about anything.
And I would really like to hear him moans as loud as he can.

When we get there I walk us into the apartment and offer him something to eat or drink. So he just gets a bottled water and we head to my room.

I turn on the TV just so we'd have background noise.
We then climbed onto the bed.

Things felt a little awkward for me, maybe because I knew exactly what he was expecting happen.
So I pretty much just sat on the bed, looking at the TV.
While he had his back against the headboard.

I'm not sure how long we sat there in silence, but the longer it went on, the more awkward it felt.

I could see him fidget with a pillow from the corner of my eye and he'd occasionally look my way.

"Taehyung?
Did you change your mind?"

I quickly turned his way and said, "No.. why do you ask?"

"Well cause normally you'd be all over me by now.
Even when you knew we wouldn't go too far.
But this time you're sitting still, and haven't tried coming near me at all. And we had already determined we would have sex today."

I sit back to also lean against the headboard and say, "I'm sorry, but I guess I'm just really nervous."

"You're nervous?!
But you've had sex lots of times."

"Yeah, but I've never had sex with someone I really love.
And I don't want your first time to be all clumsy and weird."

He giggles then crawls over to me, and places one leg on each side of mine.

Then he settles himself over my thighs and grabs hold of my hands and says, "Tae, please don't be nervous.
I'm relying on you to make this special for me.
And I don't have anything to compare it to.
So even if it's terrible, I wouldn't know."

"I know.. I know that.
I don't know what to do.."

He cuts me off with a kiss and slowly starts to unbutton my shirt. When he's done he opens it wide and slowly starts to kiss me, then kisses me down my jawline and down my chest.