Till the end

Another day

So here I am, awake..again...alone. I hate this, I feel the sheets in my hand but I can't move, and that's irritating.

"Good morning Rach" you don't know how I love this voice. I want to respond, I want to smile, I want react to this. " Hope you slept well. I really miss you. I can't be the same Jaden without you and I think you know that" since when did he become that corny ? What happened to that bitchy Jaden that I fell in love with ? I'm kidding, AGAIN. Jaden is the most humble, sensitive human being that I will ever know. "I just can't take this..." no Jaden, please don't start. "That day, I remember it like it was yesterday...why did we fight ? I can't even take that properly..." Jaden is now contemplating me, messing up with my hair " Sometimes I wonder if we didn't move so fast...we are suppose to get married by now, with 18 years old, how insane was that ? But the MOST FUCKED UP THING THAT YOU'RE HERE, IN A FUCKING BED, WITHOUT MOVING WITHOUH REACTING." he looks angry, I hate see him like this, I hate this. We loved each other, yes we went to fast in our relationship but getting married seemed the right thing in the moment..." I don't know...I'm giving up with everything time after time you know ? I can't rap anymore, I can't take care of MSFTS anymore...I'm getting to the bottom without you, I need you" why is he sounding like I'm dead ? I'M HERE, without moving and shit but yeah...

Suddenly somebody stormed in the room "My baby girl " I felt my moms hand "We flew all the Atlantics to see you when Jaden called me telling me the news..." Oh I missed my parents so much "Hi Rachel" I could feel the saddeness of my father's voice, he can't stand the fact that I'm in this condition..."You have a good boy in here, I can tell you that..." my father's said again. I tried to smile but guess what, I can't... really really I hate my life right now.

1 week later

So, status : Jaden is next to me telling me the news " So, Miami Heat are in #7 place on the Eastern Conference, ooohhhh and the MVP is James Harden" yeah, fear the beard "Or should I say MVB" he laughs. I didn't heard that laugh in ages and I truly missed that smile "I know I know it was a dope joke" he looks at me " you're so beautiful baby girl" and I tried to reply "Ja..." and nothing more came from my mouth. "OH HELL YES YOU SPOKE BABY GIRL ! DOCTORS DOCTORS RACHEL SPOKE"

Suddenly I had like million doctors around me telling me to speak "Please Rachel, try to say something..." I breath heavily and " I...can...sp..." and then they all smiled and clapped. One of them took the glasses off and said " This is magic !"

"I can't believe Rachel ! You're amazing" Jaden said that and hugged me the best way that he can and I tried to say "I...love...you..." OMG I SAID THAT. "Ohhh baby girl you don't know how much I've missed that words, love you too" and with that he took his phone and went off the room

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