Moonstruck

Getting To Know Him

Save me, Dora. Please don't leave me. Your presence alone gives me hope for a better future",Nia cries out dramatically

"I can't", I grin triumphantly." I have a free period. Adios my dearest friend".

I do something alike to a moon walk then waltz out of class.

"I'll get you!", Nia yells.

I turn around, back to the class and blow her a kiss, which she tried to avoid being hit by. I laughed at her attempt to create a book shield. The other students give us some kind of look, close to "awe". Everyone knows that Nia and I have been best friends since 7th grade.

I always spend my free time in my school's gigantic library. I won't say I enjoy the library because Mrs Willows, the librarian is a threat to us all. I shudder at the memory of Nia and I when we were in 9th grade.

Mrs Willows sent Nia and I with our stuffs flying out of the library. Well, it was my fault. Test week was coming up and Nia decided to spoil our only chance at reading by telling me her fantasies about her crush. In my rush to shut her up, I called her name rather loudly and smacked the back of her head. Next thing i know, I'm picking up my stuffs and Nia on the hallway. Nia was more than livid.

Snicker...

Getting close to the library, I spot the evil twins, Hazel and Mabel. Beautiful names but rotten character. They see me coming too and wave at me, plastering fake smiles on their Barbie faces. They're both wearing matching clothes. Short maroon coloured skirt to emphasize their shapeless hips and tight, black singlet tops.

" So, we were thinking", Hazel smiles widely at me."I'm having a party in my place next week and we'd love for you to come".

" Umm...sorry. I can't. I'll be busy",I apologize without sign of remorse for what I said.

" Busy doing what? You can't get rid of your anxiety if you can't mingle properly with your mates", Mabel says, placing a not-so-comforting hand on my shoulder which I  furiously shrugg off.

My throat tightens and I suddenly find it hard to breathe.

Stupid anxiety!!Stupid emotions!!

I feel unjustly conered by these two twats and I can't help the anxiety I'm suddenly feeling. It's a personal problem that no one should joke about. Most times I seem confident but what I'm trying to do is get rid of the panic that settles into my chest from time to time. Sometimes I am very calm in taking care of some situations while sometimes I'm not emotionally stable to do it and that's when negative thoughts step in and I panicking.

Sigh.

"Look at her. Tsk tsk. She's already red", Hazel says in fake pity while Mabel laughs.

They can't get away with this. Breathe in. Breathe out.

"Well, you don't expect me ..", I point at them." To not have panic attacks when I get to see your hideous faces everyday. Give me some credit, at least I'm still alive".

Well I might have told a little lie along the line. Hazel and Mabel are absolutely stunning. Sometimes it hurts to see them ruin their beauty with extra make-up amd slutty clothes.

Before their slow brains could catch with the meaning of my statement, I'm already inside the library. Everywhere becomes a little blurry as I try to keep my breathing even.

I'm worried that those pests might spread news of another anxiety attack around the school. The last time that happened, my dad threatened the principal and nearly changed my school. It wasn't a funny matter, believe me. If anything happens again, I'll have no body to turn to in a new school. No Nia. For some reason "no Fred" popped into my head. Without Nia, no one will be able to get me to calm down aleast a little. And then, who knows maybe I'll get bullied too and then my life will become miserable....what if..