Fort Callibus (IN HEAVY REPAIR)

Chapter 9

I woke up with a weird feeling on my lips, the thought of Yuki stirring in my head. I felt a little bit warmer in some places, like someone was holding me. Thoughts of Saul came back to me, about what we did and what he could have said. Oh god, that was so stupid. Why did I say yes? Now Yuki is gone and there is no one to comfort me. I reached forward to touch something thick in the air. It almost felt like a presence, but the figure wasn’t solid. It was just a clear thickness that I could feel, but not see. Maybe it was Saul. I outlined the thing softly, being careful not to put my hand through it. I ran my forefinger across something that just barely felt like lips. I leant into it and kissed it. If it was Saul, then I hoped with all my heart that he accepted it.

“I’m sorry.” I whispered to it. And I truly was sorry. None of that was supposed to happen. It was all a mistake.

I slipped out of the warmness, walking over to the duffel bag, and started pulling out shirt after shirt. Yuki should have been doing this. He would have said something smart and smirked at me and I would in turn have gotten mad and said something back.

Oh, Yuki…

I sat back and raised my head to the sky, tears brimming in my eyes.

“I’m sorry Yuki!” I yelled. “Please come back…come back…” I sniffled and let a tear fall. A heavy presence floated in front of me, weighing my body down a little bit. Maybe it’s Yuki. “I miss you.” I said as I looked around for its face.

And then sense –slightly clouded by anger- sprung up inside me.

“What am I doing?” I asked myself rashly. “He doesn’t even care. That’s why he left. I’m on my own now…but I have to keep training. I can do this.” I took a deep breath and got up. With determination in my spirit, I started running hard, faster than I ever have.

I kept running and running, making my way to the water and then back. I was almost home when I started to feel that heavy presence again. I stopped and looked up to Yuki’s height. If it was him, than I would be staring at his eyes. But if it was Saul, than I would be staring at his lips. I secretly hoped it was Yuki. I raised my hand and took a deep breath.

“Nami?” I heard faintly. It sounded like Yuki. I looked around frantically, looking for him.

“Nami!” I heard loudly this time. I looked around again. I took another deep breath, an idea popping into my head. If this works, then it works. If not…then oh well.

Then I shot my hand through the presence. I felt a sort of circulating air, like a steady intake and outtake…breathing. It’s definitely not a thing. It’s an organism. Okay, I ruled that out. If I can wish myself into the spirit world and while making contact with it, than I will be able to see it, right? I squeezed my eyes shut and started to use all my will power to go to the spirit world. The atmosphere around me started to change, I felt it in the air. I didn’t stop willing until I became apart of the air myself. I opened my eyes immediately. But I couldn’t feel the presence anymore. I sighed. So it’s probably part of another realm. I don’t know any other realms…but the realm of the dead.

Whoa, I almost got chills. I don’t want to go there just yet. I’m a little too young for that. I disappointedly willed myself back to the realm of the living. The world faded back to yellow. The birds flew away startled at my sudden appearance. I giggled to myself. Well, it’s time to do something extreme. What’s my next power? I pondered this for a moment, remembering what Aerilyn said. ‘You can do whatever you set your mind to.’ Yuki’s words crossed my mind. ‘…I can breathe underwater!’ I cringed at the sudden realization of what I had to do. I had to go back into the same water that nearly choked me to death…but if Yuki can do it without being the Child of Destiny…than so can I.