Angel 😇 or Devil 👿

chapter 8

He beaks the unwanted silence and shouted on top of his lungs and throws everything which comes in his hand. He started punching the wall badly.

Sid: kyu kyu kyu. Kyu mere saath hi humesha aisa hota hai. Main jo chahta hu mujhe kabgi nahi mila. Kyu bhagwan. Kya ab aap meri sanu ko bhi mujhse chinna chhahte ho kya. Mere mom dad ko mujhse cheen lia. Meri zindagi badal kar rakh di. Meri sanu ko mujhse door kar dia. Kya chahte ho ab aap. Kya maang ra hu main aapse. At least jo hai vo to na cheeno mujhse.

These noices were enough loud to reach in the living room which was heard by sana.

Sana: sanya. Yeh awaaz.
Sanya: sana sir gusse me hai. Apne room me jao wahi better hoga. Tum sir ka gussa face karna nahi chahogi.
Sana: agar usne kuch kr lia to.
Sanya: nahi hoga. Tum jao. Aaj tumne jo kia sahi nahi tha. Ab chodo plz.

Par sana kaha maanne wali thi. She goes towards sid room instead of her. With gathering a lot of courage she knocked at the door. Sid shouted from inside.

Sid: get the hell out of here who ever it is. Just go.

Sana had tears in his eyes not because of his rude tone but because of guilt. She realised it that people in this house are genuinely concerned for her. What she did was not right. Killing yourself is not a solution to anything. Max, sanya and mainly sidharth they are concerned for her. With a cracked voice she spoke

Sana: sidharth plz open the door. Main hu. Sana.

In a fraction of seconds door opened and she was crushed in strong arms. She was taken aback. She felt fear, she felt concern, she felt posessiveness in that hug. After a minute she reciprocated the hug and closed her eyes. They were in their own world. After 20 minutes of hug sid broke the hug. Sana looked at him. His eyes were wet. They were having infinite love, pain and fear. Unknowingly sana's hand reached on his cheeks and wiped his tears. Sid holds her wrist and pulls her inside and makes her sit on the bed. She looks around to see the mess in the room like a tornado has been passed through it. Then she looks at sid who was looking at her without blinking his eyes. Then her eyes on his knuckles which were red now. Then she again looked at sid but his gaze was fixed at her only by which he was satifying himself that she is fine.
Sid: tumne kyu kia aisa sana. Tumhe kuch ho jata to. Kya tum mujhe itna galat samjhti ho ki main tum par khud ko force karunga. Tum jaanna chahti ho na ki main tumhe yaha kyu laya hu. To suna yaha main tumhe tumhari safety ke liye laya hu. Tumhare saamne jisko maine mara vo insaan sahi nahi tha. Vo bas tumhara use kar ra tha. Or agar tum vaha rehti to tumhare saath kuch bhi ho sakta tha. Tum mujhe nahi jaanti par main tumhe ache se jaanta hu. Or shyd tum bhi mujhe kahi na kahi jaanti ho. Iske aage main tumhe kuch nahi bta sakta plz. Plz meri baat ka yakin karo. Baaki ka sach tumhe waqt aane par khud ba khud bad pata lag jayga. Tab tak plz, plz main tumhare aage haath jodta hu ki aisa fir kabhi mat karna or itna hi keh sakta hu agar tumhe pata hota ki main kon hu ya main tumhe yaha kyu laya hu tum kabhi aisi pagal panti nahi karti. Yeh jaan lo ki koi hai jiske liye tumhari jaan bot keemti hai. Baaki kisi or ke liye ho na ho. Yeh sidharth shukla kabhi kisi ke aage nahi jhuka hai par aaj tumhare aage jhukta hu tumse request karta hu ki dobara dont do this. Please. Tum chahti ho to main kabhi tumhare saamne nahi aaunga, kabhi apni shkl nahi dikhaunga tumhe chuanga tak nahi but plz dont do this. Tum jo chahogi main vai karunga. I promise.

Sana was in tears. Her guilt was overpowering her. The people who gave a damn about her she was thinking about them and a person for whom she was important she used this much bad words for him and made this hulk type man cry. She understood that she is very important in his life. She left and sob and hugged him tightly. Sid immediately reciprocated the hug.

Sana: i am sorry. I am really sorry sidharth. Main aisa kabhi phr se nahi karungi. Plz mujhe maaf kardo. Mujhe na vo khoon se bot darr lagta hai. Isliye vo...
Sid:.shhh...shh....bas bas rona nahi hai. Itne beutiful face pe aansu ache nahi lagte hai. Shaant ho jao. Plz bas. Stop crying.

He broke the hug and gave a quick peck on her forehead. He looked at her cheek which had marks of his fingers when he slapped her. He was in guilt but the fear of loosing her was more than this guilt. He holds her another cheek and kissed her bruised one. He looked in her eyes which were puffy with crying and her cute button like nose which were slightly red.

Sid: dard hora hai.

She firstly nodes negatively then after five seconds nodes positively.

Sid: i am really sorry sweetheart. Us time kuch samjh nahi aara tha. Ek min ruko main abhi aaya. Yahi rehna.
Sid leaves from there. The word sweetheart was music to her ears. Unknowingly a blush comes on her face. After 5 minutes sid comes inside with an ice pack.he slowly kept it on her cheek. She hissed in pain.

Sid: sorry...sorry.. Sorry. I am really sorry yaar.

Sana saw guilt in his eyes. He was continously chanting sorry. She kept her finger on his lips.

Sana: shh...bas. itna dard nahi hai. Theek hu me.

Sid again placed ice pack on her cheek and this time little more slightly. After arounf 15-20 minutes bruises were light so he removed it.

Sid: jao sana ab relax karo. Go and sleep. And i am really sorry for hitting you.
Sana: me too.

Sana was about to go from there when sid holds her wrist. He stands and a quick peck on her forehead.

Sid: ab jao.

Sana leaves from there and runs in her room. She hastily locks the room and blushed hard. She goes and sits on the bed in her thoughts.

Sana: yeh kya kia tune sana. Tujhe aaj aisa nahi karna chahiye tha. Max, sanya or...or sidharth. Sidharth kitni fikar karta hai teri. He was actually crying. The sidharth shukla was requesting infront of an ordinary girl. I am sorry sidharth. He is not bad. Vo ek coconut ki tarah hai bahar se hard shell but andar se ek dum bacha jo apne apno ko khone se darta hai. Aaj uski aankho me vo fikar vo darr tha mere liye. Par main kya hu uski. Kyu itni fikar hai use meri. Par abhi mera puchna sahi nahi. Or vo kya keh ra tha. John uncle sahi nahi the. Kya matlb hai is sab ka. I will wait. Main sach pata lagne ka inteZaar Karungi. Usne mujhe itna bataya baaki bhi batayga. Or vo teeno asim rashmi vishal jinko maine mumma papa ke jaane ke baad apna sab kuch mana unhone ek baar phone karke yeh bhi jaanna zaruri nahi samjha ki main zinda hu ya mar gayi. I was so wrong. Yaha mujhe log palko par bithakar rakhte hai or main unhe hi galat smjh rahi thi. Kya sana tu bhi gadhi hi paida hui hai. Aaj main pata nahi kisi ko bot miss kar rahi hu. Agar aaj sidhu hota to koi apna hota mere paas. Kyu chala gaya mujhe akela chodkar. Mumma papa ne kitni koshish ki tujhe or maa dad ko dhundne ki par koi fayda nahi hua. Sabke contact no. Sab unavailable. I really missed u sidhu. Teri sanu tujhe bot miss karti hai. Meri life main mera best friend tu tha or tu hi rahega Par aaj jab sidharth tha to laga ki koi apna hai mere paas jo meri care karta hai. Jiske liye main important hu. Sanya bhi kitna darr gayi thi mujhe dekh kar. Is ghar me log parwah karte hai par dikhate nahi hai. Sab ke sab bipolar personalities hai. Main college jana chahti hu. Apni padai complete karna chahti hu. Mujhe sidharth se baat karni hogi. Meri paintings, mera college sab chut gaya hai. Par kya sidharth mujhe samjhega. Par main koshish to kar sakti hu.

She shrugged her thoughts and goes to sleep. On the other side sid's feelings were mixed having fearful day and at the sametime having beautiful moment with sana. He calls off the day and slept.