The New Girl (A Jelena Story)

17 || Selena

I ran down the hall. I know Justin saved me from Harry, but I couldn't take it anymore. I'm always the problem. I make problems happen. It was my fault I told Harry where I am by accident, It was my fault I fell for Harry and decided to date him the first place. It was my fault he cheated on me.

I must've done something to make him cheat on me.

I'm always the problem.

"Selena wait!" Justin yelled. I ran as fast as I can out of the school building. i don't care if i'm skipping school. I just don't car anymore. Everything is my fault.

My dad abusing me was my fault. My mom died because of me. I should've died instead of her. Everything would've been better if I died.

I don't know where i'm running, but I know i'm running away from my problems.

My legs stopped in front of my restaurant. I walked inside and ran up the stairs to avoid anyone seeing me. I went up to my room and slammed the door shut and locked it. I slid against the door and started to sob. Salty tears rolled down my cheeks and I covered my face with my hands.

Once I managed to stop crying, I stood up and walked into my bathroom and grabbed the cold silver metal.

I need something to make me forgot my problems. I need something to make me take away the pain.

I rolled up my sleeve and before I can stop myself, the cold metal slid against my skin, making blood trickle down my skin. I groaned in pain.

I couldn't stop I continued to slide that against my skin making scars that won't ever disappear from existence.

I managed to put the razor down and I turned on the faucet and put my arm over and let the water slide down my scars.

I winced in pain as the stinging sensation appeared as the cold water slid against the scars making the clear water turn into a pink color.

I turned off the faucet and pat my skin. I went out of the bathroom and lay in my bed thinking. What would life be without me in it? Probably happier. no one needs me.

My eyes started to close as darkness enveloped me.

"Selena, why?" He asked as he had a pained expression on his face.

I looked down to see the razor in my hand and my arms bleeding.

"I-i don't know what you're talking about." Avoiding the situation always worked for me.

"You know exactly what i'm talking about Selena."

He walked towards me and grabbed the razor away from my hand and threw it into a dark circle behind me.

"You don't need this." He grabbed my hand.

"I love you Selena. Please don't do this again." Justin said as he started to lean in.

My eyes opened as i'm faced into reality. I looked at my scars and saw lines against my skin.

I traced my fingers against the scars.

I stood up and went to the bathroom. I grabbed the razor and twirled it around my fingers. Without thinking I went over to the toilet and my fingers on the flush button. I pressed it and the razor went down the hole that led to somewhere no one would find it.