October 2nd, 2015. HARRY POV.
' "Stop Lou!" I managed to giggle out as I twisted in his arms trying to escape his wiggling fingers as he tickled me. "Say you love me!" he shouted back, his voice getting pitchy at the end making me giggle even more at his cuteness. "NEVER!" I say and finally manage to escape his grasp and run to the other side of are spacious bed room.
"Come on Harry, just say it! Today is are four year anniversary." He said giving me a wink but then his face fell. "Lou..babe, whats wrong?" I ask moving alittle forward to be closer to him but he puts his hands up to me and mumbles a stop. "Lou..." I say, stopping my movements right away. "Please whats wrong, you can tell me.." I say and he faces away from me placing his hands over his face and I hear silent cries leaving his mouth and I want to do nothing but wrap him into my arms. "Babe." I say about to move forward some more until he shoots around with his face scrunched in anger and his hands in a fist at his sides, tears stream uncontrollably down his face and my hearts instantly broke into thousands of pieces.
I drop to my knees and can't help but let tears slip from my eyes seeing my baby like this. "Louis...please...what did I do?" I whisper and he lets out a chuckle that brings goosebumps to my arms. "Seriously! Fuck harry, DO I HAVE TO SPELL IT OUT!" he screams and I cringe. "IT'S NOT ARE FOUR YEAR ANNIVERSARY, IT'S FOUR FUCKING YEARS SINCE I GOT RID OF YOU PATHETIC ASS ALL BECAUSE YOU WANTED TO FUCKING GET HIGH! SO IT'S NOT ARE FOUR YEAR ANNIVERSARY ITS YOURS AND THIS!" he screams and throws something violently onto the bed causing it to bounce off and I to craw over to it not sure what I'll find but as soon as I spot the needle laying on the ground I instantly no its heroin. "Lou..I...you no I quite...It was just once...twice...okay six times...but baby... Please I stopped. I promise." I said as I cried harder.
"Yea...you did stop but then turned to something fucking else that was harmful... I SAW YOUR FUCKING ARMS HARRY! YOUR NOT HIDING THAT FROM ME. I SAW HOW DEEP AND HOW MANY THERE WAS.. AND NOW ON TOP OF THAT YOUR FUCKING DRINKING!" he screamed at me and I cried harder. I could hear his sobs also but then suddenly it all stopped, I couldn't hear him anymore and as I looked up, I couldn't see him anymore. "LOU!" I shouted but nothing. "LOUIS! BABE!" I screamed but still nothing.'
I woke up with a jolt and covered in my own sweat, the blanket that once covered my body falls to my lap and reviles my shirtless chest that is covered in various tattoos. These dreams don't come often but it's around that time of the year when they do, so I have been expecting. I always hated dreaming of Louis because he new what I had done after he left me, what goes on in my life today and it always hurts me more. I grab the glass next to my bed and cooked alittle bit when I notice it wasn't water but vodka, I still swallow it all down tho and stand up from the bed. I reach for my boxers and cover my naked body. I look over at the sleeping body in my bed and I need to get her out of here.
If she only new I was gay and not interested, I'm only interested in to the alcohol she gets me for free and maybe a pill every once in awhile. I walk over to her and shook her shoulder. "Brit" I say and she mumbles in her sleep. "Come on, you no you've got to go." I say and she sighs before sitting up and I cringe at the way her makeup is smeared and her hair is a ratted mess. "Harry, I don't understand why you make me leave.." She says as she removes her naked body from the bed and I just turn away. "Don't ask me why, you no I don't speak about it" I don't even move when I feel her hands go around my body. I just stand there.
"See you later?" she says and tries to kiss me but I move away and she frowns. "Not tonight" I say and she frowns even more as she looks down and my arms and notices the fresh lines that go over my old scars. I freeze, I no she won't say anything because of how I flipped out on her last time but I still don't enjoy people looking at them. "Bye, you no the door. I need to shower." I say and walk over to my bathroom and slam the door.
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Always In My Heart (Larry Smut/Short Story)
Fanfiction'It's been almost four years since Lou tweeted that tweet to me...Four. I would never forget that night because it held so many great memories to me but it was to close to the day of my worst memory so it was a struggle for me to go back in my head...
