Walking up the L.A sidewalk, I stared up at the night sky and watched as the stars appeared across the sky. It was beautiful and very relaxing, as the cool wind blew on my face. But, my relaxation didn't last long, as the memory of Tyler coming onto to his son's pregnant girlfriend re-inhabited my mind.
Why couldn't Terry's dad be a regular dad? A loving dad, that wasn't aroused by his kid's lover. Gee, why was he so handsome? But it didn't matter much, because no matter how handsome he is, I'd never try anything, or even think to attempt anything with Tyler... or anyone for that matter. Besides, Terry was beyond handsome, he was friggin beautiful. I could never see myself cheating on Terry with anyone. Not even with Leonardo DiCaprio, or Theo James... even though I'd have to kill myself after turning them down. Terry's my life, and I'm breeding his child, which is the greatest gift he could ever give me.
What has been wondering my mind though, was the fact that Tyler hasn't expected me to expose him. Why not? Why wasn't he worried that me telling Terry about his behavior, would risk losing him forever. It could be, because Tyler didn't really care much for Terry. But how could I think that? They've lived together for nineteen years, until Terry moved out, once he got accepted into our college. They're father and son for heaven's sake. They're very fond of eachother, but I don't know if that's just a ploy for the two just having to put up with eachother.
''Shiloh?" By reflex, I wheeled around at the sound of my name, and instantly regretted it.
''No, no, no." I whispered, as I turned back toward the street. I wasn't mentally prepared for this, was I? What was he doing here, anyway?
''Wait- no!'' He said, pulling my elbow. ''Just let me explain.'' Blake said, looking into my eyes.
''No, Blake! I can't take the bullshit okay! I have a hard enough time trying to get over the memory in my head.'' I stated, walking past his silhouette.
''I didn't lie!" He shouted. What? My feet has stopped. ''I meant it when I said I loved you.'' This time I could move, I turned to face him with my head down. Slowly lifting my eyes to him, the hot tears flooded my cheeks.
''I bet. You also meant it when you said that I was just 'some stripper'.'' His eyes slowly lowered to the ground, before lifting again. ''I'm sure you meant it when you said that you were single. In fact, I'm positive you meant it when you said, you cared for me, or that I was beautiful, or that you even loved me.'' I sniffed, as I neared him. ''I forgive you for embarrassing me, humiliating me, abandoning me, and using me.'' I swiped away my tears, and held my head high, before placing a hand over my bulging stomach. Blake's eyes lowered to the bulge, before returning to mine, with hurt clear on his face. ''because that's how you show someone, that you 'meant it' when you said you loved them.'' I said, before prancing off down the sidewalk. I inhaled, and for the first time I could breath. It's like I've been seeing with a blurry vision, before finally getting glasses, and seeing clearly. Terry was my inhaler for breathing, but now, I no longer need him as my crutch. I can breathe with air reaching every inch of my lung. I can breathe. Closure really can heal. I didn't have to turn around to be sure that Blake wasn't following me. Which is more assuring considering the fact that, if you loved someone you would've pushed beyond all boundaries, all borders, and all limits, to retrieve someone you love. Exactly as I knew, Blake doesn't love me, yet in his selfish mind it must've been worth the shot.
I walked into Skeeter's with a new attitude. An unfearful confidence. I stalked right up to a Mountain Dew sipping Terry, and pulled him into a kiss. I clutched at his shirt, as he placed a hand on my lower back. No longer taken off gaurd, he took control of our kiss, as he gently gripped the sides of my face. Tears were streaming down my face. Happy tears. Closure tears. Terry pulled apart, and held my gaze. I gave him a reassuring smile, as he planted another kiss on my lips. ''Thank you, for being here for me. I never told you this... but I had expected you to walk out on me on the day I announced I was pregnant. Only because of your old ways, of course." I giggled. Terry looked into my eyes confusingly, as I continued. ''You've never abandoned me, or humiliated me... you meant it when you said that I was beautiful, right?"
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Romance''I need some time." His voice had lowered. ''Terry, I um...'' I trailed off, I have to tell him something just as heavy, so he won't think he's the only one hurting. I'm hurting too, and I've never told him, just like he's never told me. The thing...
