i haven't left my bed since last night. it was currently 12 in the afternoon and i haven't really heard anything from anyone. i reach over my night stand and text daniel where he's at. i waited for the ding after i sent it. it wasn't that i'm too lazy to go downstairs to see where he's at, i'm just sick and tired of feeling so gross.
i feel dirty even through i shower everyday. i just don't eat anymore, and all i do is sleep and cry. it's seasonal depression but it really hit hard on me this year. especially when it comes to that time of the month but i'm not even on my period. my phone dings and i quickly grab my phone off the charger to read his text. he said he was downstairs. i heard faint footsteps get louder as he approached the door. i smile as he opens the door and walks in.
"hey you're awake." he sits down and hands me a coffee. "thank you daniel," i set the glass between my hands and look up at him and he gave me a quick kiss on my lips. "i thought i would let you sleep in, it was very quiet this morning." he reply's, laying down on his back. i set the mug on the night stand and lay down with him. "where is everyone?" i ask. daniel shares a house with his brothers and i had just moved in with them a few months ago. "they went to franny's house to work out."
"and you didn't go?" i looked at him. he loves working out, especially not alone, it was surprising he didn't go with them.
"no, actually i stayed here for you." he tells me. i give him a confused look. "why? i was sleeping the whole time." i say. "they actually left like 20 minutes ago but that's not the point, i'm worried about you." he says which caught me by surprise. he noticed i changed over these last couple of weeks. "haven't been eating, oversleeping, i hear you cry almost everyday and it's heart breaking." he brushes his hand over my cheek and pulls back a stand of hair behind my ear.
"i don't know why i'm so upset." i tell him.
he studies my face for a few seconds. "is it because you miss home?"
i nod my head. "but not just that." i say.
"then what else?"
he kinda put me on the spot but i had to tell him the truth.
"it's stupid to cry over but, i've been gaining weight, i felt so disgusting and that's why i've been starving myself, to make myself feel skinny again." he was listening to me, letting me get everything off my chest.
"i posted this picture on instagram and people were pointing out my stomach and my thighs, basically calling me fat, it hurt a lot."
he frowns and pulls me into a hug. his warmth and sweet scent made me feel calm so i wouldn't cry in front of him.
"but you know what, most of those comments they tell you how beautiful you are, how hard working and independent you are as a 19 year old woman, i'm pretty fucking proud." daniel smiles. i shake my head disagreeing.
"what?"
"i'm not beaut-" daniel stops me before i can say anything else.
"let me show you how beautiful you are." he says.
"daniel i can't even get out of bed because i feel so disgusting, i don't think you can show me." i say.
he smirks, shaking his head. "stay still." he tells me very softly. he hovers over myself and pulls my shirt over my head. he kisses my stomach, purposely kissing my most insecure places. "beautiful.. beautiful... so sexy." he says between each kiss. his voice was low and it was turning me on. he really did know how to make me feel beautiful.
"mmm daniel." i moan. the door has been left wide open and franny and daniels brothers came home. he kissed my neck, kissing all over my face, we both started to laugh enjoying each other he took his shirt off and pulled my pants off.
"daniel i heard the door open." i say.
"they'll just have to wait then." he says. i smile at him and let him continue. before he tried to unclip my bra i stopped him.
"i don't want to do this anymore." i sit up.
"okay we can stop. what's wrong?" he makes me look at him. "we haven't had sex in so long, why is that?" i ask him. he looks away for a second, i could tell he was wondering the same thing.
"i don't know, and it's not you, maybe we just don't have time for it anymore i mean we're both getting older, it's not something we want to do everyday anymore." he says. i mean i could agree but also we aren't old for it. that's what adults do.
"daniel you're only 21, you still have time for it, i know you enjoy it as much as i do."
he nods his head.
"i promise we can do it more often." he tells me.
"just not now?"
"no, let's do it, i change my mind." i say.
"daniel, sierra, we're back." i hear his brother from downstairs. i sigh and put my clothes back on.
he grabs my wrist. "tonight, i'm fucking you, in here, i don't care who is here, it's gonna happen." daniel says. i laugh.
"i'm being serious." he comes close to my ear and whispers all the things he's going to do to me in my ear. i shiver. i noticed his boner. i squeeze it through his sweatpants.
"you have to wait." he says.
"fine, but you better hide it before franny see's, you're mine." i smirk.
we went throughout our day and it was almost midnight. everyone was still up watching a movie downstairs. daniel took me upstairs. we went into his bedroom and shut the door. he immediately started taking his clothes off, i did the same. we met on the bed when we were completely undressed and felt our hands against each other's warm bodies.
i got on top of him and kissed his neck hard, leaving a bruised hickey against his neck. i kissed down his abs and i went down to deep throat him. he pulls my hair up and pulls it as i gagged on him. his tip was the most sensitive. i sucked on his tip and i look up to see him with his head thrown back and his lips parted. "that feel so good." he moans.
soon after another we flipped and he was slamming into me. i grab onto his bicep and he rocked his hips forwards making me scream. tears formed in my eyes as i was so overworked. "fuck daniel!" i yell. the bed hit against the wall, daniel started to moan loudly as he was to his orgasm. he came on my chest, us both breathing loudly. i swipe my fingers against my chest and cleaned myself off. sucking on my fingers. "you taste good." i say. he lets out a small laugh and lays next to me.
"can we both agree to do this more often." i say.
"hell yes."
the next morning we woke up. i went downstairs snd see his two older brothers in the living room. i walked into the kitchen to grab myself a water. "i'm sorry but holy shit you two were loud last night." christian says. i laugh. "well, i'm dating your brother that's what happens." i say. he rolls his eyes playfully.
