Your my Life (Kouha Ren x OC)

Chapter 4

Kouha POV

After the wedding I headed back to my quarters..

"This whole thing makes me tired... I want to play with my servants tonight.." I said to myself.. When I reached my room I saw a lavender scented candle in front of my door.. I kneel down and when my eyes landed on the letter my eyes narrowed..

Prince Kouha,

      Please use this... It's good for your fatigue.. Hope you will use it...

                                              Sayori

"Hmm... As if!!" I grab the candle and throw it away... No matter what you do your nothing... A useless ugly princess who doesn't even know what her purpose means... After I throw the candle away I open my door and I smirk when I saw my loyal servants...

"Welcome back Your Highness..." My servants welcome me..

"I'm back... Let's have some fun!!" I smirk..

"Yes.. My Prince..." The three maids answered..

End of POV

Meanwhile..

Sayori POV

I changed my clothes and when my eyes laid on one of Prince Kouha's belongings I decided to give it back to him...

I leave my room and decided to give Prince Kouha's his belongings back to him.. In my hand was my hand knitted hat I made for him.. Smiling to myself..

"Will he be happy to receive it?" I asked myself when I heard a rolling sound... I look down.. My eyes widen when I saw the lavender scented candle in the floor even my letter was wrinkled.. I kneel down and hold the candle and my wrinkled letter to my chest.. I stop myself from crying... Standing up with determination I silently walk towards in his room..

I was going to knock on his door but I saw his door slightly open.. I sneek to see what his doing... My eyes widen.. My heart sank and I heard my surrounding fall into silence.. In front of me was the naked man I married together with his three naked maids.. They are making out again.. I felt my world collapsed again... With a heavy heart I leave them be.. In my hand was the gift I want to give him and his belongings... When I reach my room I slam the door and lean to it.. I started to collapsed even the things on my hand started to fall down.. Remembering the scene I look up in the ceiling of my room and suddenly my eyes started to water..

"Am I that ugly?? Am I not worthy to make you love me?? What can I do to make you at least treasure me just like them? Being with you was enough to make me happy but I didn't know that being with you was this painful... Does my young heart betrayed me for confessing my love to you? What can I do to make you love me like I do?" Hugging myself I cried all the pain that is build up inside my heart..

I can do this.. I know he will learn to accept me.. I know... I know somehow.. I think... This is hopeless.. For how many times do I have to lie to myself... For the sake of our country I accept this marriage... Even though I know I'm the only one who was madly in love...

"I'm pathetic... Aren't I... Being in love with the person who doesn't even turn to look at my way..." I smile to myself while carressing the hand knitted hat I made for him.. With a sad smile I stand with my head held high..

"I need to start again.." I smile to myself..

With my heart being completely thorn apart I decided to at least make friends with him.

"That's right.. Even though I can't be the one you need at least I can make you my friend right?" I said with a painful heartbreak..

End of POV