When does life begin?

The fault of Me

I was laying there asleep with my wrist put in the open we're Leo accidently cut me. I woke up to feel someone holding the hand with my fresh cut. Mom.

Why did u do this? My mom asked.

Its a really long story mom.

Leo told me everything.

Oh.

Well then theirs nothing to explain. I said with a smile.

No their is.

What?

Did u make Leo cut u.

Um no Mom why would I do that.

Ok then.

My mom left, I couldn't find Leo anywhere. I decided to look at his phone I opened the message that was from Ell. I read. (L for Leondre E for Ell)

L: Ell Im going to the park meet me there x

E: alright be there in 5 xo

L: see u there princess xx

He's at the park. I got ready and left to the park. I finally got there to see Leo and that girl Ell on the swings. I went over to Leo and Ell and said awe.

Um who are u Ell asked.

Oh I'm Jess the girl Leondre is breaking into peices right now.

Um excuase me Ell said looking at Leo. 

Look what are u doing here Leo said in a disturbed voice.

I thought u would want ur phone that was laying on my couch I said throwing at him. Oh yes and remeber this I said showing him my wrist where he cut me. And I deleted my number from ur phone. I said as I walked away.

Jess Leo said grabbing my waist.

Don't Leo I don't care anymore stay with Ell she needs u more than me. Not... I said as I walked away.

Jess can I come back to ur house later.

Why? I asked.

Never mind ill text u later he said.

Did u forget u don't have my number anymore.. Bye Leondre. I said with tears running down my face.

Leondre called my mom when I got home because I was with my mom.

Hello Leondre my mom answerd.

Hi Um is it ok if I come around right now?

Well Jess dosent want to really speak to u at the moment.

I really need to make this right please.

Fine yes.

Don't tell Jess.

I won't.

She ended the call. What did he say? I asked.

Nothing.

I went to my room and watched T.V. as I cried for about 2 hours untill I heard a knock at my door. Go away Mom.

Are u crying? I heard Leo say.

Look what the can't dragged in. I said sniffling and still crying.

I have a knife against my skin again Leo said.

No u don't my mom wouldn't let u get a knife stupid.

Look Jess just open the door please fine but take 10 steps back and shut ur eyes I said.

I opened the door and grabbed Leo's hand and put it on a tear rolling down my face. Don't do anything just feel my tears. I said. 

Ok. He said.

I let go of his hand. I ran to the bathroom and cried harder but I didn't lock the door. Leondre came in and hugged me. I was two weak to push him away.

I didn't mean to hurt u he said softly.

Well u did 3 times. I said.

Ell was my girlfreind. He announced.

Now u hurt me 4 times. I told him

But I want u Jess.

Well I want a lot of things to I said pushing him off my weak body.

Just know I will always love u. Goodbye Jess. He said before getting up and walking down stairs.

I followed I looked out the window to see Leo just go in the middle of the street and sat there. I went and grabbed a knife from my kitchin. My mom had left so I was safe.

I walked outside Leo saw me with the knife. I said if u kill urself ill do the same I said placing it against my skin. I sat at the edge of the curb well then I said. He walked towards me and grabbed my hand I'm not gonna ever let this happen again he exlaimed.

I grabbed his phone out of his phone and put my number back into it. What do u want me to put my contact under? I asked.

My everything he answered.

I'm going inside ok I said.

Ok.

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Jess