Haikyuu Sleepover/truth or dare (ᗒᗜᗕ)՛̵̖

Chapter 18- The second day

I edited and used some lines from the song,
Empty by, Jaiden Animations and Boyinaband

Hinata's POV
I didn't eat snacks yesterday and didn't eat breakfast today either, no one realizes how skinny I am, not even Kageyama....
But I guess that's good, I can't have them know about a more of my problems

All this started when my dad started abusing me, he called me a "fat bitch" and telling me I need to be "empty";
I started getting self conscious of my body and started eating less and less, sometimes when I eat meat buns with the team I throw up afterwards so all the food gets out of my system

I also developed anxiety and depression too, I had a lot of panic attacks at home, if I had a panic attack at school I would run to the bathroom

I hate my life, though Kageyama and my friends do make it a little better

"Shoyo!!!"
Kenma yells
I flinch and look at Kenma
Everyone is looking at me and I get overwhelmed
"Oh...yeah"
I say nervously
"You zoned out again what's on your mind?"
Kageyama asks
"Oh...ummm"
"Is it about your dad?"
Suga asks
"Oh..it's an effect of him...."
I say shocked that I'm saying this
"Oh what is it then, you don't have to tell us though"
Kageyama says
I take a deep breath in and decide to tell them
"I have anxiety and depression....I was just thinking about that..."
No one looked shocked, well only a little, I guess it's because of my dad, so they expected it

But then everyone starts going over to me and crowding around me asking questions
I start breathing heavily and fast and I start having a panic attack
"N-no not now"
I whisper
Kageyama notices my heavy breathing and says
"H-hinata!!!"
Everyone looks at me and I get even more overwhelmed
But Kageyama, being the great boyfriend he is, puts me in his lap and starts stroking my hair
trying to calm me down and after 10 minutes I finally calm down
"I-I'm s-s-sorry..."
"It's okay Hinata"
Kageyama says lovingly
"Yeah!! no sweat!"
Noya says

5 minutes later

"Hinata? Why didn't you eat breakfast today?"
Kageyama asks
Oh no!! There going to find out
"Yeah, you didn't eat the snacks last
night either"
Akaashi says
"Hinata...are you eating?"
Suga asks
Suga has always been good at figuring things out, I didn't expect him to figure this out though...
"O-of course!!"
I say but I stuttered...now there going to find out!!!
"Hinata you never stutter and when you do it's when your nervous and upset"
Kageyama states
"I-I-I...."
"Shoyo, you can tell us, we won't judge you"
Kenma states
"I-, no, I h-haven't been e-eating..."
I say nervously
Now everyone looks shocked
"Can you tell us what you would do and think Hinata?"
I start crying, i'm so embarrassed
"My d-dad called me w-words l-like "F-fat bitch"
And telling me I need to be Empty, I started believing it and started n-not to e-eat"
I say shaking
"But you eat meat buns with the team?"
Noya says
"I throw up afterwards..."
"Hinata!!! That's not good for you!!"
Suga yells and I flinch
"Oh sorry I yelled, but can you tell us more...?"
Suga says sweetly
"Well at first it was working, but then things were emerging, cracked lips and tired eyes, I'm hungry with no appetite; I'm shivering and shaking, and I tell myself it's fine, but you can't fool your body, you can only fool your mind!"
"Hinata..."
Oikawa says
Empty, I JUST NEED TO BE EMPTY, AND I WILL HIDE FROM ANYONE WHO WILL PREVENT ME!!!"
"Hinata, no..."
Asahi says
"It's been getting even worse, all the days begin to merge, just a blurry haze...., but the voice comes back to say, "They don't know what you want", but it's so overwhelming and the number keep decreasing,this ordeal is becoming routine"
"No..."
Kuroo and Kenma said
"FINE, I ADMIT I'M ADDICTED!!?"
"Hinata you could die..."
"I know I could die..."
"Then why...?"
"BECAUSE I NEED TO BE EMPTY!!!!"
"No you don't Hinata, I know your dad has had a big effect on you, but don't listen to him or the voices"
Kageyama says as he hugs me
My eyes widen as I cry into his chest

After I calm down AGAIN

"Hinata....can you take off your shirt so we can see how much weight you've lost...?"
Suga asks
"Oh....okay..."
I take my shirt off and everyone's eyes widen

Kageyama's POV
Hinata's rids were poking out and he was  super skinny, he needed to be in a hospital!
"H-hinata...."
Bokuto says

Hinata's POV
"Hinata you need to go to a hospital..."
Daichi says
"No, no, NO,NO!!! I can't go!!!"
I start having another panic attack
"How about this then, if you start eating a little every day, you don't have to go to the hospital"
Kuroo says
"Ummm...that will be hard"
I say unsure
"If you don't do that then we will take you to the hospital"
Yamaguchi says
"I-, fine.."
"Okay! Then I will get you something small from the kitchen"
Suga says enthusiastically as he clapped his hands together

Suga comes back and has a granola bar
in his hand
"Here"
Suga says sweetly
I take the granola bar and unwrap it, then just stare at it
"You can do it Hinata"
Kageyama says and I turn around to look at my handsome boyfriend, I'm not as good looking as him...
I stare back down at the granola bar and take a tiny tiny bite out of it
Everyone says stuff like "good job Hinata"
Or "We're so proud of you"
I feel good and continued eating it faster and faster
Eventually I finish the bar and I feel so proud of myself but so disappointed at the same time
Kageyama notices the look on my face

"It's okay to feel dissatisfaction that you ate, but this will take time to fully feel okay again; but I promise that I will help you ever step of the way"
Kageyama say
"Thank you"
I say as I curl back up in Kageyama's lap