A PAGE FROM MY LIFE

I am Afraid

I don't know who all are still here, reading these words. But here goes another piece of my heart. Hope you enjoy it.

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Dealing with feelings is tough,

When trying to describe, words are never enough

And even though this sounds cliched

Sometimes I am afraid.

I won't admit I cried today,

Even if I do, the reason, I would never say.

Just because people in the past have betrayed,

So when trusting someone, I am afraid.

Sometimes I find angels who listen

Talk so much my eyes would glisten.

 'Am I burden?' the insecurities invade,

I again go silent because I am afraid.

Asking for help is a whole new drive,

Used to the abandonment which later arrives.

Left alone and utterly dismayed,

Often I don't ask for I am afraid.

I give advice as a person who cares,

But am usually dragged in dirty affairs.

Tired of dealing with this two-edged blade,

Now I don't even utter a word only cause I am afraid.

Giving love is no longer easy,

More and more people I meet are turning sleazy.

It was only after I went through the disappointment and degrade,

That I really became afraid.

As I now enter my youth I finally found,

The people I love and would want to keep around.

And at last, after suffering for a decade,

I am slowly starting to live unafraid.