1-15-2015

Part 3

        Paul has been very protective over me, and it's getting annoying. I mean, I know that he walked in on me hurt myself, and all, but, now he's always around me, and it gets annoying. The only good thing about it, is that I finally met his YouTube buddy Danny Edge, and he's hot. The only thing is that I don't know if he likes me also. If he does, then he does a good job at hiding it.

        "Daley, c'mon, we have to be at Danny's in about an hour!", he yelled up at me. I wonder if he knew what Danny did to me every time his eyes met mine, his smirk pasted proudly on his face, and his hair having the perfect amount of don't-care to it. "I'm coming!", I yelled down, telling him that I'd be down in about 10 minutes, the excitement of seeing Danny growing by the minute. 

        By the time I got down the stairs, I was practically glowing with anticipation. "Hey, Daley, what are you so happy about?", Paul asked, my cheeks started burning, and I could tell that they were red as a tomato. "N-Nothing.", why did I stutter God dang it! He just looked at me weird, and shrugged it off. It only took us about 10 minutes to get to Danny's house, but they were probably going to eat, talk, and set up. "Hey Danny, can you please bring me a jar of Nuttella?", I asked, not really wanting it, just wanting him to walk over to me, and our hands accidentally brush or something. "Sure babe.", was his response. I knew that he didn't mean it like in a romantic way, but, I still melted. He walked in with a jar of Nuttella, with a spoon sticking out of the top of it. "Thanks Danny.", I said, and a smile appeared on his face. "Hey Daley, do you, um, are you um, well, dating anyone?", I panicked, What do I do? I asked myself. "N-No. But I want to date someone.", I said, probably looking like a total dork. He walked off, and I was left with an awestruck look on my face. I heard a commotion in the kitchen. "If you touch my sister, I will kill you!", I heard Paul say. "Let's just start the video", I heard Danny say.

        "I'M DANNY!.... AND I'M PAUL!", I heard them say as they started the video.

I cant stop you from hurting yourself,
But I can try.
You feel alone, like no one out there cares.
Always on your own, why is no one ever there?
Look 10 years ahead & take a look back.
What will you think of those asshole's attacks?
Why did I take it and let them hurt me?
Why did I fake it, and not let them see?
Smiles can be faked, and words aren't just words.
Underneath all the heartache, you just want to be heard.
But you kept your mouth shut, with a smile glued to your face.
You let it build up. You thought that was your place.
But what bottles up, will always break open.
If love's in the air, you are constantly choking.
So you took to the blade, toilet, or worse.
Cause maybe if I change, I wont be stuck with this curse.
And you punished yourself while trying to please them.
The people who laughed, and through dirt on a gem,
And you look at yourself, and thought you were the issue.
Because, if no one care, then how can anyone miss you?
Now come back to the present and look what's ahead.
Cause on this path, in 10 years, you might be dead.
But don't let go, don't give in, and don't let them win.
Don't give them the satisfaction of controlling your actions for another minute.
Because as long as you're here, and by here, I mean life,
I just want you to listen to my humble advice.
This world is filled with more than bad people.
There is so much to create, take and give.
And if you're listening now, I want to tell you to live.
Because living like this, is no life at all.
Trying to stand just to fall to a crawl.
Weather it's scars, weight, or something else on the surface,
You need to comprehend, you're in no way worthless.
If you can listen to them, you can listen to me.
So put down the blade, and set yourself free.
You may think you're alone because there is no one that you see.
But internet friends ore real to
And there's me.
So next time you feel worthless or depressed,
Or you just need to get something off your chest.
I'm here for you always, like you're here for me.
This family of ours is meant to be.
So lets grow old together, without growing apart.
And lets take on the world with only love in our hearts.
It's time to cheer up, and smile, and stand up again,
You've been down for a while, but now you have a friend.
We've all had good times and bad times.
The highs and the lows.
But never again, should you feel alone.

       The poem was beautiful, and I connected with it a lot. "Hey, Danny, go talk to my sister.", "What about?", "The poem. Go tell it to her, and tell her that you're always going to be there for her." I heard footsteps coming from the kitchen, leading into the living room, where I was. "Hey, Daley, um, I have a poem for you, and no, it's not a love poem. It was approved by your brother. He recited the poem, and I was, once again, in tears. "Do you understand the meaning of this poem?", I thought about if I should tell him, and decided that I should. "I-I-I self-harm, and purge. Paul walked in on me last night. I couldn't control it. It was the first time to self-harm, and I couldn't stop. Then, the memories of my dad calling me fat came back, and after we ate, I threw it all up. I knew I shouldn't have, but I still did it. Now, I'm going to never be able to enjoy the summer weather by swimming, i'll never be able to wear short dresses, and I-I....", I started crying uncontrollably, unable to finish my thoughts. He bent down and hugged me, making me feel weird, but not the uncomfortable weird, the good weird. "Hey, Daley, is the person you like, me?", I felt the blush creeping on before I said, "Yeah, I've liked you since I met you. You're cute, and you didn't run away when I told you that I self-harm.", a smile found it's way to his lips. "Then, you wont mind if I kiss you?", he asked caringly. "I wouldn't mind. I'd actually probably like it.", I said, my blush deepening.

         He leaned in and pressed his lips to mine. It was just a short, closed-mouth kiss, but I still could tell that he loved it as much if not more than I had. He was my first kiss, and I loved the fact that it was with him.

        A/N- I hope that was good. I meant to upload this yesterday, but then the bell rang, so yeah. There you go.