Misery. Can you define misery, i can. Misery is a state or feeling of great distress or discomfort of mind or body. Im pretty miserable. People tell me that they would kill to be like me , to be the girl everyone likes. I have had 5 people tell me this. But i dont understand why. im not the kind of person you want to be ya maybe i have awesome friends and great parents but im not always happy.
I cant believe i forgot to introduce myself I'm Santana and this is my story on why I'm such a miserable bitch. so I'm 13 , pretty young to be miserable right? And I'm turning 14 in 8 days. Great another year of disappointment. My parent kinda suck but there alright.they don't really care what i do as long as its safe.which half the time it isnt, but you know what they don't know wont kill them. I cut my rists but not every day when something bad happens , which is basically every moment of my life but most times there just dumb things. I only cut when something reallllyyyy bad happens.
So enough with that bullshit. My misery happened about 4 years ago i was in grade 5. I got the shittest teacher in the world. Her name was mrs.franklin and she didn't do nothing she was lazy and was always on the computer. I admit she was a fast typer but couldn't do shit to say her life. Anyways there was about 10 people i knew in the class room Finn he was very nice but dumb as hell when he was around girls , Frankie who's best friend was Amanda and they could not be separated for an hour , Eric who was very fast on his feet but not fast in life , and then there was Katy my best friend in the whole in tire world , then there was elsa she was very nice until i pissed her off , Also their was Olivia , Vanessa ophelia and olive they have been best friends ever since birth. They all lived on the same street.
It all started a month after i started to feel like i didn't belong. I knew i didnt so i kept it to myself and went with the flow. Every one was always happy at school , i was happy when i was at home. I had no one to impress no one who i needed to like me , i was just me.
About 4 months into the year some one texted elsa saying that i called her a dumb wench when really i didn't. And just my luck i get punched in the face by her. Right when i walk in the class room not having a care in the world , she comes up and punches me. Seriously wtf?!? Then the finishing touch was to spit on me. oh was i pissed. but the funny thing was i didnt do anything i laid on the ground and got the shit beaten out of me by a girl who was about 4'8. I laid their for about 15 minutes until the piece of shit of a teacher noticed. And i finally closed my eyes and passed out.
I finally wont up with a bunch of blood in an emergency room. she really must have hated me to literally kick the shit out of me but i really didn't care.
4 day after
I go to school and i see everyone looking at me. and the only one who caught my attention was the bitch that did it . she had that disgusting smirk on her face like something was gonna happen. out of no where katy comes up to me and says we cant be friends no more ur a bitch. i think my heart stopped for a moment there but i was very shocked. i felt like i was gonna pass out but i kept my balance . katy told me its cause i said that shit about elsa. i was confused and then she said you called her a stupid bitch how could you do that. you don't know how damn confused i was. i didnt even say that but whatever nothing is ever in my favour. so just told katy ok.
