Tom holland x You

Goodbye's

Y/n pov

I'm sitting next to Tom's hospital bed when he wakes up. "Hey y/n." He says, grabbing my hand. "Hey Tom." I say, holding his hand. "what happened?" He asks. "I thought you would know." I say, leaning back in my chair, pulling my hand out of his, it didn't feel right given what I was thinking. He looks down at his hand before he puts it in his lap. He sits up and looks at me. "Why can't I hold your hand?" "Because there's no point in being like this, and dragging you on if I'm planning on leaving." I say quietly, looking at my hands. "what?" He asks, sitting up more. "I'm leaving." I say a little louder, looking at him. "Why, when?" He asks, getting worried. "Why, because I put everyone I love in danger. You, Haz, Katy." I say, looking out the door. "When, tonight." I say, looking back at him. "At 8, I have a plane." I say. "Where?" He asks. "To where, I don't know, all I know is I'm leaving." I say, standing up. "No, you can't leave." He says, trying to stand up. I push him gently back onto the bed. "I have to, so I can't hurt you, or Haz or Katy." I say. "But, what will I do without you?" He asks, looking into my eyes. "You'll be fine, you don't need me." I say, walking away. "I do, I love you." He says, sitting up. I freeze. The last time someone said I love you was when I was was watching my mom die. "Do you love me?" He asks. "I don't know." I say, slowly turning around. "I've forgotten what love feels like." I say, looking at him. "Let me show you." He says, trying to get up. I walk over to him and push him back onto the bed, gently. Before I turn around, he grabs my wrist. He pulls me down to him and he kisses me. It's a sweet, long kiss. A loving kiss. One that I have long forgotten. When he pulls away, I have tears in my eyes. I walk out the room. Leaving him for good. "Y/n?" I hear him say. "Y/n!" He yells, a doctor runs in there, trying to help him, while I run out of the hospital, tears rolling down my face.