The End Of The World[ Yeonbin FF]✔️

27.THE FAULT IN OUR STARS

                                         " The thing about pain is , it demands to be felt "

                                                                                                 - John Green , The Fault In Our Stars 

' How we ended up like this '

The moon was  shining bright in the night sky and its light glimmering through the glass over which the thin frost grew over , a pair of midnight dark eyes observing the static beauty but not in a way of appreciating the darkness but to distract himself , to distract from the pain he was feeling right now .

Soobin's gaze fell over the clock for the third time now , sighing deeply when he noticed it struck exactly at  2 am , the cold seeping deep into the cracks of the younger's bones , it was weirdly cold tonight . The younger trembled uncomfortably on the bed before he shifted his posture on bed for a millionth time now , snuggling closer to the blonde haired haired male beside him , his chest rising and falling slowly telling that he was in a deep slumber , the younger was thankful at least he didn't left him all alone at night and stayed .

 ' Should I tell him ? ' The thought kept crossing the younger's mind as he groaned deeply when a crushing pain came in one part of his brain and went , just like a pattern , the purple haired male feeling just like a prisoner in a cage of pain .' No , not right now , I have to endure the pain ' Soobin draped an arm around Yeonjun , burying his  sweaty head deeper in the older's neck as he prayed the pain to go away , his clammy hands tightly gripping the older's waist as he felt his breath catching in his throat and his pulse quickening .

' No , not right now , I can't ' The words kept escaping from the younger's trembling lips , his body shuddered from the fucking stinging pain that throbbed so violently around his skull that Soobin  wondered why  it didn't just crack open .

' You have to endure it , not it front of Yeonjun ' Soobin mumbled when he felt the panic beginning like a cluster of spark plugs in his abdomen as his stomach churned painfully . Tension grew in his face and limbs as his  mind kept  replaying the memory of his last panic  attack.

' I have to sleep , I have to, it won't otherwise  ' Soobin scooted closer to Yeonjun , leaning his head against the cold pillow as he squeeze his eyes shut , willing the pain to go away , his breathing became more rapid, more shallow as he was curled next to the blonde haired male, silent tears streaming cascading down his eyes .

' Please stop this ..... '

.                .                        .                      .                           .                           .                             .                        .                 .

" Soobin , you have woken me for the second time now , why are you moving so much "Yeonjun mumbled in his sleep , a hint of irritation in his voice when he felt a body shifting continuously on the bed , just beside him . Yeonjun groaned in annoyance when the movements didn't ceased .

Yeonjun opened his mouth to say something but suddenly stopped , his drunk in shock when he heard a familiar weird noise echoing in the cold dark room , Yeonjun eyes shoot open in concern , fully aware as all his sleep blew away when he realized the  weird noise was the sound of a someone crying , it was a heartbroken sob followed by a few deep gasps of deep long sighs in between .

" So-Soobin ! what happened ? " Yeonjun stated concernedly, his speech still slurred as the effect of alcohol still hadn't gone away . Yeonjun eyes bulged out in shock when he saw the younger's back facing him as he laid on the bed , his thin frame curled in a round ball as his slumped shoulders kept shaking convulsively , the familiar muffled sobs escaping the younger's mouth followed by the sound of the uneven  rasping gasps of Soobin that filled up the room .