Why are you the way you are?

Chapter 5

Salem
I'm so tired I am very very tired. Xzavier had me up all night and I am just sore,I have been flipped,tossed and stretched ass much as he could last night. I honestly don't know why I slept with him so quickly but I'm glad I did. The only problem is that bitch that is now staying with him. He explained that they were best friends since childhood and he was always her savior from things so he had to let her stay. I know I shouldn't be tripping over this but I am. I know I said it was fine but I lied. This is someone he was planning on marrying and he's letting her stay over. It was eating me up on the inside I need to know before I decide to put my feelings in this I need to know what he's going to do about her.
"Xzavier wake up!" I said pushing him
"Mmmm what's up? I'm tired"
"We need to talk."
"About?" He said. Xzavier turned over in bed and somehow I ended up under him. He started kissing me and here i was smiling like an idiot.
"We need to talk about Raven."
"Rachel."
"Whatever the fuck." I said
Xzavier kissed me one more time before rolling off me and putting on his clothes. He sat there and didn't say a word so I just continued.
"Are you still in love with her?" I asked. Xzavier stopped putting on his clothes and turned to look at me. His face unreadable and it was killing me. I'm starting to like him and it's scaring me how much I like him without even knowing him.
"I don't know." Xzavier finally said.
"What do you mean? You don't know?" I asked
"Honestly... Her being here is bringing back feelings but i like you too."
I got up out of bed and didn't even try to have a conversation on that. It wasn't going to end up good with me and I probably would have went off. Xzavier followed behind me trying to get my attention but I just wanted to go. I opened the door and just instantly felt a migraine coming.
"SALEM RAINE LAWSON? Is this why you moved out so you can have men running out of your house!" My mom asked.
"Mom.... dad.... why are you here?" I asked rubbing my temples
"Raine?" Xzavier said looking down at me. I shrugged my shoulders I honestly didn't know why my mom named me this but oh well. It's unique I guess.
"Who is this?" My dad asked
"No one important." I said
I saw Xzavier face scrunch up when I said it but it's the truth. He's not important and I won't put my feelings into him. I mean yeah we had sex but what does that mean? People have sex flings all the time doesn't mean there should be feelings right? Please tell me I'm right because I think I'm developing feelings already.
"How old are you boy?" My mom asked
"I'm thirty two."
My mom and dad gasped and shook their heads at him. They looked at him with so much disgust in their face and then walked up to me. Tamela and Cordell Lawson are nothing but dramatic,controlling, over protective parents. They treat me like a baby and I get it I'm their last born but omg it pisses me off about how they treat me. My dad is a successful heart surgeon and my mom is a successful investment banker. They met in high school and here they are now with five kids. My mom is 48 and my dad is 50.
"You do know she's just a young girl!" My mom said
"Disgusting!" My dad said
"IM 23!!!" I yelled
"She's a grownup. Im gonna call you later squirt."Xzavier said before walking past my parents and into his apartment.
"We have nothing else to talk about!" I said before he shut his door. I closed my door and walked towards the living room leaving my parents standing in the hallway. I know it's rude and disrespectful since they did pay for the apartment but I don't want to deal with them right now. I went into the kitchen to start a pot of coffee and waited on my parents to barge in.
"Have you lost your respect little girl?" My dad yelled
Sigh. I'm gonna need some hard stuff not coffee. I ignored him and went and grabbed four coffee mugs. I continued to work my way around the kitchen when I heard my mama huff and puff under her breath. Me and my parents don't have a close relationship because of them being overbearing with me. I have two brothers and two sisters. Our birth order goes: Omen(28),Dawn(27),Wolfe(25),Luna(25),(twins) then me Salem. Don't ask me why we have these types of names but we do. Growing up my parents let them run wild but not me. I couldn't stay out late,couldn't date before the age of 17,couldn't get my license until I was 17,couldn't get a job,they had to know my every move and who I was with,background checks on my friends. It was fucking ridiculous!!! This is why I became a rebellious and sneaky teenager.
"Child I know you hear us!" My mom yelled
"I do." I said
"Who was that man?"
"My neighbor."
"Did he force you to have sex?" My dad asked
"No he didn't. Dad I've been having sex since I was fourteen that's almost a decade of sex." I said
My dad held his heart and gasp when I said that. I turned around rolling my eyes at the dramatics and grabbed the creamer and sugar.
"I knew letting you move out was a bad idea. You don't know what you're doing I think you should move back home." My dad said
"The hell I am!" I screamed
"Excuse me young lady?"
"What? Y'all can't keep treating me like I'm a child. IM FUCKING TWENTY THREE YEARS OLD!! I can do what the fuck I want to do and there's nothing y'all can do to stop it."
"Salem-" My dad said
"WHAT!" I yelled
"Lower your voice when you talk to him." My mom said
"No let her have that. She's grown right she can say and do whatever the hell she wants right?" Then that means you can go out and find a job... you're cut off!take care of your own fucking self!"My dad said storming off to my door. My mom looked shocked at his outburst and ran after him.
"What! You can't do that because I don't want to move back home! Why do you hate me?" I asked
"We don't hate you."
"Obviously you and dad have it out for me! I don't see y'all acting like this with Omen and he's out here being fucking crazy!" I yelled. My brother may be the oldest but he has so much craziness going on. Not only does he get arrested for drag racing but he literally has four baby mamas and every week someone is fucking up something of his. Last week one of them broke into his tattoo shop and tried to set it on fire. I don't see them trying to move him back home.
"Let him cool off." My mom said
"I am cool Tammy. She wanna be grown then I'm done taking care of her. Don't call me for anything you pay for your own apartment now."
"Whatever I don't need y'all! Bye." I said.
I had tear running down my face and I couldn't win for losing today. My dad looked at me with so much disappointment and I don't care. I am grown and I want to be independent but they won't let me.
"Salem! We're leaving I will call you in a week you two need to calm down." My mom said
"Bye." I said not taking my eyes off my dad. My mom walked out the door and stood there waiting for my dad to walk with her but he didn't move. He's trying to get me to beg for him to not cut me off but it's not happening. I know he won't do it but still I'm not gonna apologize. My dad looked at me one more time before walking out and my mom running behind him. I slammed the door and walked into my room still crying. I will never understand why they treat me like a baby. I sat down in my bed and heard Rachel and Xzavier talking through the walls.
"Where did you go?" Rachel said
"I went to Malcoms."
"I know you were with that girl." Rachel screamed
"No I wasn't."
"I wanna try again with you. Please?"
"I don't know. Maybe but I gotta be honest with you I do miss you." Xzavier said. It got quiet but after about five minutes later there was the sound of the headboard knocking. Yup I knew I shouldn't put my feelings out there but I did. I cried harder and got up out my bed and walk to Tori's room. I saw that her and Malcom was sleeping. I got in her bed and pushed my way to Tori not caring if they were naked I wanted my best friend.
"Excuse you we are sleeping here." Malcom said
"Get out!" I yelled
"What's wrong?" Tori asked sitting up. "Malcom you gotta go."
Malcom got up out the bed and walked to the door cursing under his breath. I laid my head on her shoulders and just cried.
"I heard your parents but I was too scared to come out." Tori said
"Yeah he cut me off and I bet he's gonna go and call your parents next." I said
"He always threatens to cut you off. What's really wrong?" Tori asked
"Xzavier and Rachel are doing it and we had sex too. I really like him and he's doing this. I fucking hate men!" I yelled
Tori hugged me tighter and then rubbed my back.
"I know what we can do to cheer you up." Tori said
"What?"
"House party!!!!" Tori yelled
Oh fuck yeah. Time to get drunk and shake my ass all night. Maybe I'll invite my neighbors and show Xavier what he's gonna be missing. Fuck him. Time to go crazy.