A Song Bird- Severus Snape Love Story

Chapter 5- The... Date?

*TRIGGER WARNING* I will let you know when to skip If needed.

-M

"HAZEL WAKE UP!" Is what I was greeted by Layla with in the morning.

"C'mon it's already 9:30 and you have to get ready for your date with weasley." Layla said to me.

"It's not a date, just a friendly cup of butterbear. No need to get all excited," I said back and she gave me an unconvinced look.

"Well whatever it is you need to get ready."

I got out of bed slowly and hopped in the shower. I got changed into my usual attire; a white tennis skirt, white collared shirt, green crew neck and white tennis shoes. I put light makeup on with my signature winged eyeliner.

By the time I was finished getting ready it was 10:30am. I made my way to Hogsmeade with Layla on a carriage. When I was walking to The Three Broomsticks, I got nervous again. What if he just wants sex, that's what every guy at Ilvermorny wanted.

I walked in and saw him sitting at a table. I went to greet him and he got up and pulled my chair out for me. What a gentleman, I thought. He said hello and went to order some butterbeer.

"Here you go," he said, placing the mug in front of me.

"Thank you," I said "So Bill, tell me about yourself."

"Well I am the oldest of 7 siblings. I live with my mum and dad in a small little house with the rest of the troublesome lot. It's nice to always be around family but can be overwhelming at times. What about you? What's your family like?"

"Well I grew up in Alfriston then moved to America when i was 10 for my Step Dads work and went to Ilvermorny. Then my Step Father got a job at the Ministry so we moved back here. So i Transfered to Hogwarts. I live with my Mum and Step Dad. My Father died when I was very young." I explained with a sigh.

"I'm so sorry." Bill said with sympathy.

"It's okay, It's not like you were the Death Eater that killed him," I said with a fake laugh.

The rest of the date went great, we really hit it off. We spoke for a couple hours then I decided to go shop around with Layla.

"Thank you for the butterbeers and the company Bill, It was lovely."

"That's okay, are you sure you don't want to come back to the castle?" he asked

"I promised Layla I would shop with her" I said back

"No worries, well I'll see you back at the castle." I smiled at him then noticed he was leaning towards me. I started to panic. Like really panic. I started shaking and sweating then my heart started racing. I backed away and ran off towards the castle with tears in my eyes.

*****TRIGGER WARNING SEXUAL ASSAULT TRIGGER WARNING*****

I started having flashbacks to when I was home alone with my step father when Mother was at work. He would lock me up in my room and use freezing or petrifying spells to keep me still and would do unspeakable things to me.

He made me feel disgusted with myself, like I was dirty. He made me feel like I was nothing. Like I was unworthy of love and affection. Like I wasn't worthy of sex other than for a punishment.

Now everytime I get close to people I push them away because I'm scared of getting hurt the same way he hurt me. He took away my innocence and he took away my choice without so much as a second thought. He was a monster and I hated him.

******END OF TRIGGER WARNING*****

I ran my way back to the castle and down to the common room. As I turned the corner I smashed into what I thought was a wall but ended up being so much worse.

"What in the devil are you doing, you clumsy girl?" he said in an angry tone.

"I am terribly sorry professor I was distracted and didn't look where I was going,"

"Detention for your arrogance and clumsiness. Tonight at 8pm."

"Yes professor." I said with some sass. Although I don't think he picked up on it.

What a dick! Couldn't he see that I was crying? I ran all the way to my dorm and cried in the shower.

Dinner time rolled around but I really wasn't really hungry although I knew I would end up hangry later on. Layla convinced me to go to dinner. She saw I was upset and when I told her I didn't want to talk about it she didn't pry.

I sulked my way down to the Great Hall and ate some chicken but that was about it. I looked to the teachers table and my eyes connected with a pair of charcoal black ones. I sighed and looked back down at my food poking it with my fork. It was nearly 8 so I stood up and made my way to the potions room.

I knocked on the door and waited to be invited in.

"Enter.' I heard the velvety voice say.

"Hello Professor, what would you like me to do today?" I said awaiting my punishment.

"Well first you can enlighten me as to why you were so distressed earlier." 

Was THE Severus Snape asking me why I was upset? The same Severus Snape that hates everyone and everything? Well that was a surprise. 

What was I going to say to him? 'Oh hey Professor my Step Father beats and rapes me?' I couldn't. My Step Father would lose his job and I would get the blame.

"Oh...um. Bill tried to kiss me and I ran away." Why was I telling him this? I never tell anyone anything.

"Hm. And that was cause to run away? I thought you liked the insufferable twit." Why does he care?

"Well I do, as a friend. I just don't like people being close to me or touching me at all. It makes me distressed." WHY AM I SAYING THIS? STOP IT HAZEL.

"That is understandable. Well today you will help me grade papers." he said uncaringly, "yes sir."

I took my seat opposite his desk and took a stack of papers. I kept on sneaking looks at him. He looked so cute when he's concentrating. HAZEL MONTGOMERY stop thinking about your professor in such a way. I mentally shook the thought out of my head. What was wrong with me?

I finished them by 8:30 and then I was to help him brew potions for his class of first years tomorrow.

"Stir the potion until it turns a dark blue." Merlin, his voice was so sexy.

I continued to stir the potion until it turned dark blue. I always loved potions although It was one of my weaker subjects. He came over when I told him the potion was finished.

He raised his hand to put the potion from the cauldron into the vials and me being the trauma filled person I am, flinched. I thought he was going to hit me like my Step Father did so I raised my hands to my face awaiting impact.

When I felt nothing I uncovered my face and opened one of my eyes slowly just to see Snape giving me a confused and concerned look. I felt so embarrassed. I'm so stupid.

"What are you doing Miss Montgomery" Fuck!

"I'm sorry Professor I thought I messed up the potion and that you were going to hit me."

His eyes widened but I didn't want to explain myself. Should I just high tail it out of there?

"And why on earth would I hit you for such a thing Miss Montgomery?" Oh no.

"I- uhh..." I decided to run before I incriminated myself any more.

I ran into my dorm and threw myself onto the bed. How could I be so stupid. He'll begin to ask questions I will not want to answer. How was I going to explain this tomorrow? What would he think? What will he say? What will I say? I dozed off to these thoughts running around my brain. Thinking about what I will say tomorrow.