sad boy hours

right now

Ok so first off,this book is quite pErSoNaL if you will,so yeaH.

Recently,if you didnt know,I'm very not straight,but I still like boys (obviously),but a few weeks ago I was pressured into a relationship with my friend,that I didnt want to be in. She had a huge crush on me,and she has a very wild temper, and I just wanted to see her happy. So I said yes.

That was at lunch time,and I just couldn't do it anymore. I pulled the douchebag move and broke up with her the same day. I know how mean that is,but I just couldn't do it. She of course had to go on her tiktok and post about it. She posted things like "I'm not good enough" which she is. The comments were the worst part. People were bashing me,telling me how worthless I was,and shit like that.

And ever since I watched stranger things,I always lived by the rule "friends dont lie" . But I lied to her. I told her I liked her in a way that I didnt. I tried to convince myself I did like her in the ways I told her,but it was no use.

Now she insists I dont care about her,she hates me,although she wont say it,and it's just so much. I know this has nothing to do with yall,but I need a platform were I can just vent to someone without my friends from school getting involved.

Thank you for listening.