Do I Not Look Broken

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When you look at me what do you see?

Do you notice when my smile is fake?

Can you see how desperate I am for help?

Do you notice when my smile is fake?

Or when I'm sad?

Do you ever wonder why I'm up so late?

What would you say if I told you about them?

What would you think?

Would you think that it's for the attention?

Would you say . . .

"You can talk to me."

Even if I wanted to in can't.

You'll judge me.

Tell me that you went through worse.

You did go through worse.

Just a different kind of worse.

If I saw someone.

What would happen?

Would I come back?

Could I finally be myself?

Would my pan finally stop?

I do think I will.

See anyone agian.

Everyone i used to know.

They went on with there lifes.

They see people on regular basis.

Mom, dad, sister, they also see people on regular basis.

Sister, her not so regular.

But still she sees people.

I lost myself.

I look in the mirror and I see who I've always seen.

A person hiding behind a smile.

But what do they see?

What did they see?

If I see them agian, would I still look like me to them?

If I open up to them about it.

Would they help me?

Or would they also think it was for the attention?

Someone tell me what you would see.