Fool's Gold [styles au]

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You were like an overplayed song and I couldn't get you out of my head no matter how hard I tried. You were constantly there nagging me to think about you. You were the song that refused to leave. The lyrics repeating over and over and over, driving me completely insane.

When a song gets stuck in your head, you find a new one to replace it. A better one, one that will make you forget the old song. But you can never forget it because it's just so damn catchy and everything about that song just demands to be heard over and over in your head until it's the only thing consuming your thoughts. Other girls never did that, only you. I tried other girls, girls that looked nothing like you did, but you still refused to leave. You lurked in my mind, unwanted and unshakable, and for that I hate you. I hate that I love you so much and you don't feel the same anymore. Sometimes I wonder if you ever did.

I think you did.

But the thing is, sometimes when you aren't trying, the song will disappear from your head and for that short period you're free. But it never lasts long. Something will always remind me of you. Sometimes it's something I see, like a patch of wild daisies, your favourites, growing through the cracks of a broken path. Sometimes it the smell of the ocean where we shared our first kiss. It was awkward but beautiful. I wonder if you ever think about that kiss? I was your first kiss, your first love, and you were mine. How did we end up like this?

I'm still waiting for you to come through that door in your leggings and ridiculous target tshirts you always managed to look so amazing in. Maybe I should stop waiting but I don't want to. What I want, is for you to come back, to come home.

You know where to find me,
I'll be here.

All the love in the world
H.