Kim's P.O.V
Prequel
I never thought that I would be here. In Jay's apartment. In his bed. It was a rough day for both me and Jay. Everyone else had plans so Jay invited me to get drinks. Molly's was way too crowded, apparently everyone had a bad day, so Jay invited me to his place for beers. We had started to talk. It was the first real time that we got to know each other alone. Jay was still asleep, and we both had to get to work. I set an alarm on his clock to make sure he got to work in time, and left a note saying
'Last night was nice, but we should probably just move on from this. That does not mean forget it happened'
With that I left. Went back to my place, and when I saw Jay at work he nodded. I guess that means he agreed.
Four Weeks Later
For the past week I've been waking up early with an upset stomach. I haven't puked or anything, but I've been more tired recently. Today was my first day off since I've been feeling off, and I scheduled an appointment to calm my nerves of this being more than a stomach bug.
I'm at my appointment now, and the doctor wanted to do blood work just to check for everything before confirming it was just a bug. After what feels like 30 minutes she comes in with the results.
"So there was some inconsistencies in your blood work, but they are completely normal for anyone in your condition." What condition? What was wrong with me.
"What does that mean?" I mean what was going on. This is why I hated going to the doctors. They always had most of the answers, and it was like pulling teeth to get them to talk.
"It means you're pregnant. Around 4 weeks." Oh my god. Jay. What am I going to tell Jay. How will he react? I mean he's a good guy, but this is life changing.
Those were the thoughts that occupied my mind while I was walking to my car. When I finally get in the tears start. Jay and I are both cops. Antonio has kids, but their mother wasn't a cop. The long hours. What will that do to a kid. What if I'm a terrible mother. Jay's gonna be a great father, but me I'll drop the kid. How can I do the job while I'm pregnant. I probably will have to do desk duty which I'm fine, but before I think about that I have to tell Jay. I sent him a quick text asking if I could come over. He said sure and asked why. I didn't answer him. I just tried to calm myself down enough to drive to his place.
I stood there for 5 minutes at his door before finally lightly knocking on the door. It opened almost immediately, and there stood Jay probably taking in my appearance. I know I looked like hell. My eyes were red from crying, probably still with tears in them, and my hair was a mess. I looked like I had just came out of a fight with the grim reaper and just barely got away.
"Kim what's wrong? Here come in." As he ushered me inside. See he would make an amazing father. How was I going to tell him. Jay would probably be able to tell. He was good at that. I should probably just get it over with.
"Jay... I'm four weeks pregnant." I end in an almost whisper. He didn't start to react at first so I thought that he hadn't heard me. I was about to say it again, but I was suddenly in a tight embrace.
"It's ok. We'll figure it out." He started to lead us both to the couch. We just sat there for what felt like hours. The tears had stopped a while ago. I didn't know what to say, or maybe I didn't want to end this moment. It felt like I was meant to be in his arms.
"I don't want to sound controlling or anything, but I don't think you should be going into the field." He can be really sweet sometimes.
"I was already thinking that, and I don't think it's controlling. It's sweet." That got a blush from him which was somewhat funny.
"Alright and about us I don't want us to move too quickly because of the baby." I smiled at that for two reasons. One being that he called us an us, and two being the fact that he smiled a little bit more when mentioning the baby.
"So there's an us." Maybe just maybe I did this to see him squirm, and not to get an affirmation on what I had just assumed.
"I mean if you want there to be. I was already thinking about us before that night, but if you don't want to then that's fine." He was so cute when he squirmed. He looked down just a little to not reach my eyes.
"I would very much like there to be an us." With that I put my hand on his cheek to get him to reach my eyes. He smiled and his eyes dazzled. It was only then that I realized how close we were. Only a couple of inches closer and our lips would be touching. We both started to lean in, and it didn't take long before the gap was closed.
