idk what it is but everytime i come home im so mentally drained. like i may be happy at school but when im home i go depressed and tired? my feelings of being a bother are coming back but i don't want to talk about it. im also worrying a lot, also apologizing a lot. But that has never changed. I apologize too much. Im also realizing a lot more now. I'm seeing more things about myself. i don't like saying no. which i guess makes it easy for people to "manipulate" me? idk. with people im close to, i don't like getting mad at them. i want to hide it. they have so much negativity in their life already and i don't want to add on to that. i want them to stay happy so we can have and make happy memories. even if one day i just "blow up". it's so hard coming to terms with what i feel. i can't even put a description on it.
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𝚏𝚒𝚡𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚖𝚢𝚜𝚎𝚕𝚏
Non-Fictionthis is basically where i come to vent. you can read where it started as somewhere to fix myself to me letting it all out. "𝚢𝚘𝚞'𝚟𝚎 𝚜𝚑𝚘𝚠𝚗 𝚖𝚎 𝚒 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚜𝚘𝚗𝚜 𝚒 𝚜𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚍 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚖𝚢𝚜𝚎𝚕𝚏" [lowercase intended] tears...
