A Few Things

Cing - Don't

If you fall in love with me, don't.

This is not some cliche poem about my childhood Suffering from the lake of a male role model. Because that would a terrible lie. And my dad raised a daughter with a guilty conscience, not a liar.

Anyways, I'm here to warn you about you might be getting yourself into. I smile by Habit. Not by choice. I giggle out of empty, and humor, or embarrassment but never to purposely spite.

I get jealous when I see someone can provide for other people in a way that I cant. But, that's because I'm a people pleaser and us people pleaser, we just want to give.

And I go through phases just like the moon, but I always complete my lunar cycle and return to my bright self again. And you should probably now that I'm emotional. Like really emotional. In fact, I may even think I have you fooled about how I am feeling, but because my dad didn't raised liar. I'm forced to unintentionally wear my big sobby heart on my sleeve.

Oh, and I'll let something slide 1,026 times, but after that, I don't give a second chance. I'm also an incredibly all or nothing person to a fault. But when I'm invested in something, id rather lose everything good I have before I even consider declaring bankruptcy.

But remember: there's two sides to every coin, so if you fall in love with me, don't. Because in ever lunar cycle, The moon disappears for a while, and it has dark side too. And I said I was a people pleaser and us people-pleasers ....we pour.

If fact I will keep filling and filling Your Glass Until it's overflowing and my pitcher Has Gone empty because to see you hydrate is all I could ever want in this world.

Until I realize it's left me drained. When I'm drained, I'll get frustrated; and sometimes, I'll go into heading. I'll either take a solo hike or get in my car and drive just to get my distance, peace, and alone time. But don't you worry because I'll eventually turn around and come home again.

Bekasi.