is it love

déjà vu

As we arrived at the party hermella started socializing and me standing beside her like a body guard some guy came and asked to talk to hermella and they went(means that i am alone  alone ay a party where i dont even know a single person

God i missed samri so much sureni love hermi but she can be inconsiderable sometimes dhe totally made a fool of me today she was talking to peoples like i wasnt there makimg me wonder why she wants to bring me to the party first of all but she is my friend so i will let it pass
Then i saw samri i was gonna go over to her but some guy wrapped his arm around her waist and she smiled at him  so he must be the boyfriend whom she celebrated anniversary with

Then she noticed me and both of them come to my direction "oh mygod samri u look great"   "well i cant say the same to you"she joked whatever i mumbled then i saw her boyfriend's face it was the nerd "excuse me"he frowned "huh"
"you just called me nerd"shit did i say it loud "no you must misheard me i just said i am going to the bath room" "see you "And with that i left

John

"Nerd"

"excuse me" i  frowned
"huh"she looked really confused
"you just called me nerd"she was really taken aback but she changed her expression and said
"no you must misheard me i just said i am going to the bath room" she came up with lousy excuse i have to hold in a laigh i have never seen someone stupid as her "see you "And with that she left
I was amused sure i was mad but i remember she was the new girl and she looks so much to my childhood friend actually  i am not sure if i can call her friend but she is more than any friend i had we just spend a day but how she made me feel damn i can never forget
Ya i feel bad to feel like this when i am with samri not to mention the one who made me feel like this the girl in my dreambut she was the one who insisted to be my girl friend
Flash back
"samri i dont have feelings for you it is getting annoying for real"i was really irrritated
"then date me i wont bother please try me cant you see this is bard fkr me to but i cant help it is mg heart"
Then i  feel real bad for her and i thought maybe i will stop those dreams about the girl
"i dont know i dont wanna hurt you"
"just give me a chance"
Then i did we started spending times and i was really comfortable with her but not in the romantic way i just liked her company that is is and here we ade 1 year anniversary 
It all started when i met this girl when i was 6 and she was 4 my father had bussiness meeting with the gerland family and she was the daughter of the ceo of gerland my dad asked meto play with her and as usual we played and she went i went to my home but starting from that night i started having weird drams about that girl i had met it wasn't exact her but it was the older version of her and the places was her and me  in clothes old peoples use and the place was like frlm 20th century i know its weird
Helen
I went to bath room and  i see hermi is talking with the dave guy at the corider and when i  was about to head to bathroom i see hermi smashing her lips to his didnt she say he was her ex and played on her
   
Ok this is so weird when i was about to start heading my way the mean girl pushed me forcefully and she split them and slapped hermi
"hermi you were her i was searching for you this whole time"i was trying to pull her lut of this situation without realizing i was dragging myself into it"

"oh so this is your new minion "
"excuse me mean girl i am her friend well you will never understand if you keep acting this way you will just be surrounded with fake peoples " i was about to go when hermi said "i will fix this it is personal"
"ohh sorry i thought you need help"
"just go " i did as she said and i remebered the mean girls word her minion i was blinded with the excitement of having friend for the first time and now i get it

Fuck it is like déjà vu of caroline in u.s