It All Started With A Breakfast

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'Outside. Second floor. Balcony.'

I thoroughly wrote on a small yellow post-it. Rain came to halt already and it's such a perfect time to succumb to the cold weather outside. I sticked it to my folded black oversized jacket together with grandpa's unused gray sweatpants. I think a brief was tucked inside the sweatpants. Those two has lots of clothes yet they don't use all of it. Sometimes, I wonder if they just magically poop money. Grabbing grandpa's extra flip-flops, Youngmin's outfit is now complete. When chance was showing itself, I ran to his room and left those on his bed.

I grabbed my cellphone and earphones and directed myself outside. I don't know why the second floor isn't connected at the house, but atleast we still have one. I got to the dark terrace and dangled my feet out. It felt great like this. Like my legs were flying. I plugged my earphones in and drifted to my own world.

Minutes later, Youngmin sat beside me as I welcomed him. "You should do it like this. Trust me, it's better." I smiled at him, referring to my legs. He hesitantly did and laughed at himself.

"It's not so bad trusting you. I wish everyone was like you."

What he said made my head turn to him. I tried to get some information out of his eyes but he won't look at me. "Done staring?" He smirked. That smirk that would make any girls automatically fangirl. When my feels went active, I hit his shoulder lightly.

Wind blows and we both caught each other rubbing our arms. His fresh scent infiltrates my nose. "You bathe?" I asked. "Yeah. Took a cold bath to get rid of the heavy feeling. So... why here?" Oh right. The cold is not in his favor. "I just find it peaceful here." I nodded to myself. I took my right earphone off and gave it to him.

"Youngmin?" I called out to him hoping he understood what I wanted-- permission to ask him questions. "Go on."

"Why were you at the beach?"

"Trying to find a peaceful place like here. I needed to get away." That feeling where you were just sick of everything-- I think that's what made him come here.

"Did it have to be this far? I mean you are here at province, living with people you don't know." And I'm interrogating somone I don't know.

"I don't know. But in this world, there is only me I should trust the most. I trusted myself. To where it would bring me."

I hummed in approval though his answer just fueled the curiosity in me. "Til when would you stay then?"

"I don't know. But your grandparents has permitted me to stay for how long I want. According to them, they were never given a grandson so they allowed me. Unless you want me out?" He's diligently answering me but why do I feel like I want more explanation.

"You know well you are offending my pride right now hm?" I asked jokingly earning a chuckle from him.

I already know the answer to this question I am about to ask, but maybe it's worth a try to break my expectation. I know opening up a person you just met is crossing the line, but maybe...

"Why did you run away?"

Just maybe...

"Because..."

He would tell me the specific truth.

"My parents... are having a rough relationship. Man should I be telling you this?"

"You said trusting me isn't so bad. Just put it up like this: When you leave. When we seperate ways... We'd be strangers again. Just think of it as releasing your burden to a stranger who would completely forget everything about it tomorrow." I know what I said made sense cause I felt him relax. But one thing is for sure;

I hurt myself.

"They have been trying to make me believe that they still love each other. Not when I turned 13. I saw countless proofs but I... remained silent about it. And 5 years passed, they are still keeping up with their play, pretending we are a complete family, thinking maybe I was still as innocent as a child. Maybe I just got fed up..." He explained looking up the sky though the clouds are covering the beautiful galaxy of stars.

"Maybe? But you said you trust only yourself? Why so unsure you got fed up?" I'm starting to love his deep yet gentle voice.

"Because they are still my parents. I still love them both. Running away... I made it for them. For them to have time for themselves to think about seperating and not think about me for a while." He reasoned, proving me he trusts himself more than anyone else. "Good thing vacation is still on. If not, my studies might be doomed by now." I know he is trying to light up the atmosphere he just brought down, but I can't help but sympathize-- which I'm pretty sure he'll hate so I didn't show it.

"Why didn't you bring anything with you? You sure are brave to just travel around, sick and lacking."

"I actually bought extra income. I remember removing my slippers after arriving at the beach. I think someone stole it. It's pretty common to lose slippers at the beach." He laughed.

I guess that laugh could light up almost anything.

"Thanks. I'm quite satisfied. Thanks for trusting me." I smiled to him. "Sure..." He trailed off before yawning.

"Come on let's go sleep." I initiated. A gentle man like him can't shut out a girl like that so I decided to do so. Not that I'm shutting him out. I see he's sleepy and tired. And I can't render him tired.

His fever might come back.

"Go drink one more tablet to prevent the fever from coming back." I reminded him before closing my door. His smile was the last thing I saw.

Talking to someone like that actually made my heart lighter than ever. My friends did talk to me like that whenever they needed comfort, but this was different.

Maybe because, it was me who offered my comfort.

I just wish he felt the same. Though it's really too early to say this.

I think I am liking him.

Catching feelings are just... asdfghjkl.