Something told me i
shouldn't have fixed my fingers to twist that cap off that bottle.
Intoxicated beyond recognition, shouldn't have gave you a call, but
you were the only one, the only number, the only one
that I could dial. It's been a while since I seen you smile
but I still didn't let the stop me from phoning you A$AP,
Rocky, our communicationship has been
since I've been in and out of states,
making sure I fill up plates
while you was steadily sneaking,
feeling up traces of girls that could never be me.
I'm not bitter, you never really gave me room to be.
It's not even bittersweet when you put your hands on me.
Pinky promised you wouldn't
but I couldn't help but notice
that you were always floating off
drifting away to some other place
when you were around me.
Too far gone you could never down me,
which is why I had to drown me
in some vivacious libation
so I could be tasting what it's like to have you give up finally.
Acting like you so down for me ,
like you really under stand loyalty.
Got it tatted in ya flesh,
yet,
you still don't fully understand the concept.
Protecting you from yourself
when you don't even realize how much damage you've done.
Like you're just some fragile phenomenon.
Some unknown concept that no one understands yet.
It's been days and I still smell you on myself.
So deeply attached to you I've thought about ending myself
just so I can forget where you went in my precepts of you.
You bruised me, cuz I boozed me, misused me
just so you could tell me about someone else.
Thinking you'd confuse me by keeping it to yourself?
That I wouldn't already know that you didn't want to let go,
selfish to yourself myself and anyone else
who has ever got entangled or placed in the way of danger.
That could have been your life
gone.
Glad I'm on strikes,
prone to ending up in another hospital over you.
Left my stray jacket at the crib cuz I act out over you
didn't let her know all of the mountains we've moved?
Just so you could place more obstacles and slowly become an abuser.
Yeah me too bruh,
I got this blaki from you
wearing it like a fashion statement,
when I should really be behaving myself
and trying to work on my communication with you.
The way we acted that night was foul
and I'm tempted to drown myself and my sorrows in some more
so I no longer explore years of abuse I'd probably have to go through
just for you to admit you don't love.
This shit could get ugly,
this bruise is still tender...
"Hold on Ma'am, your transaction is pending..."
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Poetryi hope he doesn't do this to the next girl. should i stay and fight with him just so the next one doesn't have to go through things that she doesn't even realize why she's going through them? should i just have a conversation with her knowing that'l...
