Need Saving ( Thug Love Story)

Chapter 17

Mercy POV
Me and Von have been at the hospital for three hours now and we've yet to hear from anyone. As time was passing by, I was slowly losing my patience and all hope that I had left. My head was currently in my hands as I fought with myself in my head. I just knew this was my fault. Since we been here, Von hasn't even bothered to say anything to me. Maybe he was in his head just as much as I was and fighting to stay hopeful or maybe it's because he too believed it was my fault.

I have never cared this much about someone this much beside my mom and Von. It was driving me insane. Shid me and Von came close to death a few times in the past but even then neither me or him made a big deal about it because we knew that it came with the lifestyle we chose to live. But for some reason with Aleah being close to death, it was hitting different. Had me thinking about old times when I was worried about my mom not being able to beat cancer but she did. So I hoping Aleah would do the same.
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"Family for Aleah Moore" the doctor yelled out into the waiting room.

I quickly got up with Von not too far behind me.

"Is she good" I asked with hopeful eyes

"Yes, we were able to clear her system but we are putting on a 48hr suicide watch." He replied back.

"Can we see her" Von asked.

"Yeah her room is 219" he said before walking away.

Me and Von walked to Aleah's room in complete silence. I wasn't even sure if she was going to want to see me so when we finally made it to her room, I let Von walk in first. Inside the room, I decided to just remain in the background as Von walked up to her bed.

"Hey sis" Von said. Instead of replying she gave a weak smile.

"You had me scared, I don't go giving just anyone that's not blood family titles. So you should have known, you could have came to me if you felt alone." Von spoke out while hugging her.

I watched as tears fell from her eyes. Before they let go of each other Von whispered a something else in her ear which made me give him the side eye. A nigga ain't never had me feelin some type of way. But I definitely didn't like that, had me feeling like the outsider. When they was done Von turned around and stared at me.

"You got something to say" I spoke with bass in my voice.

"Nah I'm straight" Von replied back with a blank look on his face.

"No I feel like you got something to say so say it. I never befriend a nigga whose scared to open his mouth and speak his mind" I said becoming slightly angry.

"You right I do got something to say...I don't like how you standing over there like you ain't the reason her ass in this bed" Von said walking up on me.

"Don't come walking up on me...we both know that I've always had a few loose screws so don't think for a second that just cuz you family I won't seriously hurt you. Even family members need a little tough love from time to time. " I replied back with daring eyes.

"STOP" Aleah yelled before Von got the chance to do or say something else. My eyes never left Von's eyes though. How dare he think this is the time to step to me.

"Y'all need to stop" Aleah spoke again.

Von just shook his head and said he'd come back tomorrow to check up on Aleah. Then he made his way out the room.
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Now alone, it was a moment of silence between me and Aleah. I just stood there staring at her as I tried to figure her out. She didn't bother looking at me though, seem as though she was trying to avoid eye contact.

"Aleah" I called out.

"Hmmm" she said looking down.

"Aleah" I called out again.

"Yes" she said while still looking down,
so I walked up to her and grabbed her face and forced her to look at me.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean the shit I said. If it's anybody who should be leaving this earth, it's me not you......Finding you like that did something to me and to think if I never came back to your house I just....."I started to say but couldn't even find the words to finish.

I rubbed my thumb against her cheek as I continued to caress her face. She didn't bother saying anything but just wrapped her arms around my neck and pulled me towards her. It felt weird, I ain't never showed much affection towards a female before. I can admit ima dog and could give two fucks about a girl but Aleah was different. That's the only word I could use to describe her. When she finally let
go, I don't know what came over me but I kissed her.  Not a big deal, don't y'all go take that shit and run with it but it felt right for the moment.

Aleah POV

I woke up to find myself in the hospital once again. Maybe it was sign, was god trying to tell me it was something here worth me living cuz if so whatever or whom ever needs to come already. The pain I felt before was still there and I didn't know why. I still felt alone and stuck inside a hell I couldn't escape. My thoughts were interrupted though when I saw my hospital door opened. I thought maybe it was the doctor coming to check up on me again but it was Von and Mercy.

I felt kind of uncomfortable being in the presence of mercy again but it was no point in asking if he could leave cause I knew he wouldn't. Von spoke first though and it brought tears to my eyes. I felt bad, here he was wanting to be a brother figure in my life but I was bout to put the only family relationship I had to an end. We hugged for a moment before he whispered in my ear to "never let mercy or anybody else again make you feel not welcomed on this earth again" .

After our talk, I watched how Von and Mercy vibes seemed off with each. Before I knew it they started to go at, I listened closely as they went at it. I knew Von cared but I would be wrong to blame everything on Mercy. Sure he was the final straw that pushed me even more to do what I did but I would be lying if I said suicide hasn't been on my mind way before that argument even occurred. There were so many other factors that led me down that road once again.

Once their argument was getting more heated, I knew I had no choice but to put an end to it. I knew what both of them were capable of so I yelled for them to stop. After Von left, Mercy just stood there. I put my head back down not wanting to make eye contact but it didn't take long for him to make his way over and force me to look in his eyes.
As he spoke, I felt every word he was saying. I could tell he honestly felt bad which gave me the chills cause I've never seen mercy care much about anything. 
I couldn't even find the words to respond back so instead I just pulled him close and hugged him as a sign of forgiveness. When I let him go, he turned his face towards me and stared at me for a second. Then he leaned in and gave me a kiss. I was surprised but I found myself kissing him back.

A moment later the doctor came walking in ruining whatever moment we had and said that visiting hours were over so mercy kissed me on the forehead and said he would stop by tomorrow.