JOINING HIS VOYAGE

Beginning of the Journey

;

I woke up coughing and spitting out the seawater coming from the inside of me.

Ang mapait na tubig dagat ay pilit kong ibunubuga para lamang makahinga ng maayos. I didn't mind whatever is happening around me, all I wanted is to breathe.

The last thing I remembered was a sinking ship and I am fighting for my life.

Paano ito nangyari? Hindi ko din alam.

Then it all started when;

"What is this again kuya?" I asked him. I am very tempted to remove my blindfold.

Ito kasing kuya ko, daming alam.

"Hang in there, you're inside your room." he's holding my hand, guiding me para hindi ako madulas o mabunggo. He's very gentle.

Maraming taon na ang lumipas. Ilang pagsusubok at problema na dumating. Araw, gabi, oras, segundo, minu-minuto and kuya ko ang kasama ko.

Our parents died since we were little. My brother was the one who stood up for me when I was down, lost, and whenever I feel like the world betrayed me for a lifetime.

I somehow regretted and blamed myself for everything that happened to them but never did I once heard my brother spit words that could and would possibly hurt me.

Naging mabuting Kuya siya sa akin. Ni minsan, hindi siya nagkulang sa pag gabay. He never made me feel that I am alone. He never made me feel that I am being left out.

In his every decision, I am included. In his every transaction, I was there.

He is always here.

"In a minute," he whispered that made me come back to my senses.

"Now," he said as a cue for me to remove the thing that is blocking my sight.

"What is this?" I asked when I saw two papers on my bed.

Kinuha ko ito pero agad niya ding kinuha sa kamay ko.

"Nah, you can't see where we'll be going but these are tickets." he told me. Iwinagayway pa siya ang dalawang papel sa harapan ko.

Daming pakulo tss. Pabiro ko siyang hinampas ng unan ko at tinawanan niya lang ako. He looked excited. Mas na eexcite pa nga ata siya keysa sa akin.

Naupo siya sa gilid ko saka niyakap ako ng mahigpit. He seems so happy.

"What is this for?" I asked him out of nowhere. I think I knew it already but I still should ask him. Baka mali ang iniisip ko. Baka mali ang hinala ko.

Sana nga mali nalang.

"Dwyn," kalma niyang tinawag ang pangalan ko.

He knew where this is coming.

Years had already passed, nothing has ever changed. He never stopped trying to pursue or do something that I don't like.

The trauma is still here. I'm afraid. I'm scared. I almost lose everyone, I can't afford to lose my Kuya that's why I'm being careful.

Things may suck up again. I feel like I'm cursed. Oh no, I'm really cursed.

"Just tell me, kuya!" hindi ko na napigilang masigawan siya.

"I just wanted to make your birthd-" he didn't finished because I cut him off.

"No! How many times do I have to tell you? I don't want it!" sigaw ko sa kanya.