Sometimes I sit and wonder
I wonder if it's possible for anyone to love someone like me
I wonder why my dad sometimes hates me
I wonder why my mom sometimes hates me
I wonder why my friends act like I don't exist
I wonder why my coaches act as if I'm invisible
I wonder can life get any worse for me
I wonder why Im so ugly, fat, and stupid
Sitting in the dining room that has my bed and all my belongings in it
I wonder am I not trusted, is that why I have a bed sheet as a door
I wonder what have I done wrong to not have the empty room down the hall
I wonder in my lost and random thoughts
I wonder why my brother calls me fat everyday
I wonder why my half sister was jealous and hated me
I wonder if I get skinny will people like me
I wonder if I were beautiful would others see me
I wonder if 'home' is the last place you were happiest, then I must not have a real home
So sometimes I just want to go home
Counting the countless times I've called home, but they don't want me
All those times I tried sleeping on the bathroom floor
Whether at the place I lived or at school
I never got the peace to sleep and go home
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