How You Look on Me

Ghostin

Ariana's POV:

~3 days later~

I've been in Boca for a couple days now. I love spending time with my family. But right now i'm just not feeling it. I should not be feeling this way on Christmas eve.

All I can think about is LA. That last night I spent there was one of the best ones i've had in a long time. Until it wasn't.

Life was going so well. I felt so good and so peaceful spending time with Dalton. Then I saw that message from some hater. It broke me. I don't want Dalton to be affected by all of that. He's not used to the haters and all the bad press.

He's been texting me nonstop. Asking me what he did wrong, and if he can do anything to fix it. I know I owe him an explanation, but I can't do it right now. So as of right now, i'm ghosting him. I feel terrible, and I know he doesn't deserve it. He doesn't deserve anything bad that my life would bring him.

Miley and Courtney both texted me and asked me what was going on, but I lied to them. I told them I just wasn't ready to open my heart to someone else. They tried to convince me that Dalton was one worth trying with. If only they knew how bad I want that. But then again, I can't. So I made up some lie about not being over Pete yet. Miley seemed to believe it, but Court knew I was lying. Luckily, they both dropped it and not asked anything else.

The only person who knows what's going on is Liz. She flew in yesterday with her parents to spend Christmas with my family like we do every year. It's the first Christmas that i'm not spending with Court, but her family decided to spend it in Hawaii.
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I hear someone knock on my door.

"Come in." I yell. My mom walks in and sits next to me on my bed.

"Hi baby, can we talk?" she asks me and I nod.

"I can tell something is going on with you," she says. "I asked Liz but she said it wasn't her place to talk about it."

I sigh, "Yeah mommy i'm sorry. I'm just dealing with some shit."

She runs her fingers through my hair, "It's okay honey. Who is he?"

I look at her with eyes wide open and laugh. "Umm.. what?"

"You can't fool me Ari. I know this is how you get when you miss someone."

"He's just a friend. Was a friend I guess." I confess.

"Was? What happened?" I know she won't stop asking until I tell her everything.

I begin the story with the day I met him at the studio. How I thought he was so cute and so nice. Then my show in LA and how we talked about life for hours. Him breaking up with his hook up because he had feelings for me. The night at Miley's when we cuddled, and then went to my house. I told her about our midnight picnic and how we confessed we liked each other. Then about the next morning, the text I got, and how I'm now ghosting him.

"From what i've heard you two have a special connection that is rare to find. And you alone made the decision that it wasn't right without letting him decide first. Don't you think you owe him an explanation?" she asks.

"Yes I know I do. But i'm not ready yet. I don't want to accept that whatever we had is over." I say truthfully.

"So then don't end it."

"I can't do that to him mom. He has a normal life. He doesn't need all the hate accounts, the paparazzi, the fake articles, the rude comments and all that stuff."

"Fine. But when you're ready,  talk to him. You can't just ghost him Ariana. You're way better than that." she stands up from my bed.

"I know. Thanks momma." I tell her and she kisses my head.
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~ 6 days later~
New Year's Eve

Christmas was so much fun.  Liz and I sang the whole day like we usually do. We all gave each other presents. And had a great day. Days would pass by slowly, but whenever I was spending time with my family I would forget about Dalton and everything else.

He had texted me on Christmas day,

D☁️: Merry Christmas Ariana!🎄hope you're doing ok!

I fought everything in me to not respond. I wanted to talk to him, but I still wasn't ready. 

"Ari, you're okay staying alone right?" Frankie asks me.

"Alone? what? where are y'all going?"

"The Nutcracker ballet in Miami. Didn't u say you had a meeting with Scooter today?" he's acting so suspicious.

"When the fuck did I say that? No! Did you not get me a ticket?" I yell. I'm so mad. I have not mentioned my monster manager this whole trip.

"No. But we'll be back around 10:30 and we'll pick you up to go the party." he smiles.  Everyone else enters the room.

"Wtf? No! Y'all are so rude. Yes, Scooter is a fucking maniac but not to the point where he would make me work on New years eve. Who made that up?" Everyone just stares at me.

"You said it Dingus. Maybe you were drunk or something." Liz tells me.  Lies. I never said that. I'm about to cry.

"No. I can't believe y'all!"

"Well we're sorry baby. But we have to go. Get ready and we'll be back to pick you up soon." My mom kisses my cheek and they all head out the door.

I throw myself on the sofa snd start going through my twitter. I tweet:

@arianagrande:
Can someone adopt me for today? My family literally abandoned me.

I got a reply from my mother.

@joangrande:
No! She'll thank us later.😉

What is she talking about? I call her but it goes straight to voicemail.

Maybe she's driving. I call Frankie. No answer.

"Fuck them! How could they?" I tell myself.

I text Liz hoping she wouldn't lie to me.

A: Bitch! What's going on??

Liz🤍: Idk.

A: Oh so now we lie to each other?

Liz🤍: HAHA Ari stop. Just open the door.

A: What??

I hear the doorbell ring. What the fuck? Who could possibly want something on New years eve? I set my phone on the table, and stand up. I open the door to see that face I had been dreading to see. My mouth dropped.

There he was. The person I was least expecting to see...

"Dalton? What are you doing here?"